new friend...

hmmm...today suppose to be off today but last min got a colleage sick..so i got to go work lo...but then my sat will be off hiak hiak hiak....then today...work 6hrs with breeak hahha...then i somehow make a new friend....she is called wendy...working at protrim in de same mall....she is working as a salon hair washer? hm...dunno wats tat term call...well she sometimes came to my workplace n buy stuff... n she will ask which is nicer n how to u do tat n stuff...tats y somehow get to noe her today...she is same age as mi...study in ite n start working already...in hair salon...she wear specs...hmm...but somehow...she got short tongue (not making fun of her)...hmm...she needs to make up when she works...so ma fan lol...lucky i dun need to...hmm....she is born in july...lets see...she is working part time too but changing to full time next week..but de pay is so pathetic even if its full time...800+ onli...if i work full time...maybe got 1000+ lol...but i too lazy...she lives in de same area as mi too...

then today i saw serene soh working at de same mall...same level as mi....hmm..sell clothes...forget wats tat shop call...something like samuel n something lol...i was off work n going home..she was still working lol...hmmm...tats all lol...

off....

hmmm...my off days will be at wed...thur n fri...sad noo off on weekends..sadddddddd....dunno got friends accompany mi out or not...hmmmmmmmm.......another thing is...tat i receive news from my friend tat she tries to commit sucide...*sigh*....lucky her dad saved her....it was realli shocking n heartache...she even photo her wounds n stitches n shows it to mi...its arrd 20 stiches...hai...so heartache seeing her hurting herself...sad thing is tat...she also din come to mi....wat kind of friend hav i become...i din even noe tat until she talk to mi last nite...guess...she wants to be strong...n keeping stuff to herself too much until she felt tired n helpless until she explode...n wans to take her life...guess de pressure comes from her project...n family n herself bahz...tat leads to her attempting to take her life...sad tat i was not for there for her when she needs some1...she told mi its stupid now as she thinks back...so hope it wont happen again...i dun wanan lose a friend like tat...another friend of mine msg mi n told mi tat she has broken up...well i noe de guy as well...broke up becoz de guy has a change of heart...well i din contact her until she came to talk to mi...telling mi she was sick...man...so mani things happen...hope things will turn for de better for them...

finally...

yea finally i went out with ching...today...beri long din meet up becoz we were working n off days were diff...hmm,..ytd wz did ask mi out for dinner but was working...so din meet him lol...for a long time...he is still struggling with his studies n work i guess...haha..too bad...when i off he needs to work lol....hmm...today met ching ard 3pm...then we went to town area to shop for clothes...hmmm....then i bought a top n a dress lol...hmm today cost 49 for 2 piece lol...de top has a a lot of lace...but its comfortable...de dress...its looks sweet so i bought it...its elastic...so i dun realli look so fat in it hee hee...well...there is nothing much to report...dunno hows ben n qi r going on...*sigh*...i am juz a outsider...so cant do anything....oh today went to a new japan resturant...as usual i will order katsu meal lol...then ching ordered a salmon set....n her bf oreder a shaba(i dunno wat u call tat lol juz another type of fish)...then we ordered dessert lol...mine was a exp ice kachang hahhaha....without those ingredients hahaha...coz my dessert came a bit later then theirs...they start playing with their food lol...adding a lot of pepper...chilli...green tea...ice water...to their left over dessert...then ching was funni...forcing her bf to drink it...even tried to put some into my dessert which i haven finished lol...then we went to lot 1 to look at voodoo dolls lol...on de train...i saw a indian woman...which came at my workplace n used those tester lipsticks n test it on her lips...free lipstick lol...but damn disgusting...so unhygenic lol...well impression was beri deep for tat wonan lol...coz she is a bit weird as well..tats y i can regonise her in train lol...after tat i went home...hmm...guess a few has went to yucie birthday at jurong...i din join them...pub or clubbing is not my type lol...i dun drink anyway so its kind of boring over there...after shopping is quite tired already...so guess its a right choice not joining them lol...hmm tats all...

hmm...

hmmmmm...nothing much to report lo....today got put areoplane by some1...lucky i din spend my precious off days waiting for his replies....i went out to watch de cartooon "over de hedge"....well not much ppl to accompany mi to watch this childish show....all is busy working for their dreamz n such...who has such time for a childish person like mi?...they also dun wan to spend so much $$ on a childish show...welll...hurts mi real badd....guess tat PERSON...wont noe at all...anyway...i am nobody to mi...who hecks abt mi anyway....hmmm...even though childish...but funni...tats y i go watch...coz unhappi recently..so watch something funni also not bad...hmmm.tml got work again...but working early....means i go home early...hhahahaa...yea...kk tats all le...

hmmm...

hmm...juz off work today...nothing much to write...today still quite busy coz...de auntie ask mi to restock some stuff so time passes quite fast for mi...better than staring at ppl n walking ard...today rebecca called mi ask abt diploma stuff during my dinner break...hmm...then i bought sweets...hmm....tml n thursday i off...guess would be rotting at home again...fri got work =...then sat off again...sun work again...guess this month pay will be more than de 1st bahz...hee...oki...i stop here...

boring day,,,

another day juz pass...boring day...nothing to say much...juz got work today lo...dunno y got headache...super boring....*sigh*...maybe slp too much...haha...tml got work again...hmm...better than staying at home...doing nothing online rite...no 1 cares de bahz...my existance does not matter to any1...*dun exist*....

not good...

hmmm...i getting more n more mood swings...super moody mood swings....keep burrowing deeper into darkness...soon will be buried in there...juz like in de past...my temper...became bad....feel no concern at all....its as good as having no friends....i hav no zhi ji....soon explode....i hate my bloody dark side...its getting over mi but who give a damn abt it...no 1...at all...

IM3...

hmmm....today is vesak day...haha...heng heng no need to work today...so went out to watch movie with qi,ben,kiwi n moo moo...watched misson impossible 3...lol....finally...i get to eat my long long long lost popcorns wahhahaha...i miss a lot of movies -.-....well...spend quite a lot of $$ like this -.-...300 bucks also not enuff to use lol....i think i met my dunno is primary or secordary classmate working at sasa in plaza singapura...lol...she is a malay ger call liza for short...still remember calling her lizard lol...she said i changed a lot lol...more lady-like haaha...coz last time was realli rough 0,0....but i feel fatter -.-...any way who cares lol...

hmmm....i beginning or hav been luving myself...but recently realise i luv myself more liao...buying all those erm...stuff like perfume n lip bum...erm...since no 1 likes mi...then muz learn to luv myself more le...guys 0,0...hmm...dunno...its not hate them la...juz dun wan to fall for any again...coz always hurt myself more...so...heart is sealed liao...ahahaha shit i am talking rubbish again...*sigh*...no zi ji at all....so sorry if happen to throw temper at any of my friends...coz no where to fa xie -.-...

dur@in strudel!

heee...yes...today went to work....from 12.30 to 9...was realli tiring day....had erm double fish fillet green tea meal for lunch today...man de mac at my area realli sux...no napkins or tissue....n no sauces!!! best of all din ask mi to take away or eat in -.-...then forget it lo...i go home eat.....hmmm...common lo...time passes beri beri beri slowly today..n....it was my 1st day of de every month thingy...sigh...some more i din bring pad -.-"...need to use toilet paper lol...legs were realli tired....any way...i went home at 9...so its was all good!...i actually wan to buy cheese cake from crystal jade cakery..well was sold out already -.-...so i bought durain strudel! haha beri tasty...but quite expensive...13 bucks...well...tats alll for today...nothing much to report lol....


holy durain strudel

swimming or play in water lol....

yea...today...went swimming or rather...erm chat in de pool with rebecca aka qiqi...lol...coz bored at home so...after i return my comics...i went to meet her n went to yishun safra country club...hmmm...we dip in de poool lol....n chatted a lot of stuff...haha...since we hav not went swim for a long time....but we chat most of de time...lol...as usual rebecca will tell mi a lot of stuff haha...then after tat....coz i onli ate nasi lemak at 10+ until 4+ to 5....so i was hungry...i got de urge to eat KFC...lol so we went to eat KFC lol....ordered a 3 piece meal...coz rebecca onli wan 1 piece hhaah...then i treat her choco milkshake from MAC...lol...then walk ard northpoint...

we wen to espirt...hmmm...actually wan to buy some clothes...but some is too exp for mi...hmmm...then i tried 1 piece...but its does not look nice on mi...so drop de idea...oh we saw some new voodoo dolls LOL....it acts like a luck chams...some r like for studies...love...career n such lo...then its handmade de lol....small dolls at $5.90...well i din buy hahaha...rather spend on other stuff...lol

then we went to watson n guardian walk walk see see....looked at those erm..facial products...so exp..hai....then we went to body shop...hmm....i spend a lot of $$$$ in there -.-...bot a lip bum...then a perfume...then de perfume got special offers got a free body lotion...like tat 30+ omg.....then use nets to pay...shit...muz top my savings liao...cannot always spend $$...i dun wan my savings to dry up!!!!! lol....hmmm...next week..working tue..wed...n sat lol...so off tml~..another slacking day hahaa....

yea~

yea~today off work today..so can go out...actually meeting jimmy,kiwi,sig n qi at 3 de........aku n yigao n tz later then meet us.......in de end 1 thought is 4...de other dunno do wat...wait for them for 2 hrs...damn freaking angry......any way...by de time we meet...can go eat dinner liao...we went to swenson to eat dinner lol...coz i got my 1st pay 300bucks -.-...then treat them eat earthquake...but too mani ppl...like not enuff lol...eat until not beri song haha...well also hav chicken baked rice for dinner....but i ate a bit of de fish which is ben's...hahaha de person gave wrong....hahaha...

hmmm...a lot of ppl getting sick after earthquake...izzit mi spread de dieases!! lol...coz i got a bit of flu.. n cough...n we shared de earthquake lol.........but i paid for it oki -.-....no even a thank u from them....bahz forget it....realli too mani ppl sharing.....next time! muz eat until song hahahaha....tml i also off...hmmmmm....so thinknig maybe go swim with qi lo....coz she long time no swim...then lucky i off on weekends...so can out lol...got pay already spend so much $$ liao...muz save a bit liao...or else cannot last at all lol....oki la...nothing to write le.......i go slp liao sian.....*lonely* >,<

sian...

hmmm.....tml working again....rest 2 days...rot on wed..today went to sim to gave them my payment...then my mum tag along lol....then we went to jurong east...walk walk ....seee seee...then bot a pair of shoes for grandma....its for mother day haha....well i bot my mum a heart shaped gold pendant for mum already...lol cost mi $73....din bot de necklace coz no $$...so today mum went to goldsmith shop...bot a necklace....super XXXX lo...almost $200 bucks...heng i din buy for mum -.-....or else my 1st pay all gone liao lol...hmmm i thnk i will be getting my pay tml bahz...finally after working for so long...even though its part time...its damn tired too lo....

damn sian lo...wed wan to go out with ching de lo....but then...she din reply me.....damn angry....actually got work on wed de....but then coz got some pro then switch to tue...coz thinking can go out with ching on wed...coz she off....in de end lehz...waste my effort....work for 4 days straight lo....sat...sun,,,mon n tue....legs was in pain like hell...but who noes?...arrr...forget it...next time dun do stupid things liao....write out also will angry...

hmm..back to today....well as usual...boring day...even though got go out a while with mum...well better than nothing rite...no kakis...go out with mum also can...

*sigh*

hai....beri beri beri....lonely...no 1 bothers at all...guess i am realli dead liao...i dun exists anywhere at all...