troubled....

depressed....exam nearing....i am still not motivated to study....i feel tat i let my mum down...paying such a big amt of money to send mi to study...but i dun appreciate...take it for granted....feel like giving up...but i cant....doubting if i could pass....1 month left....i am still at nowhere....i dunno wat i want in life....

i wan to accomplish something myself...but dunno wat....so useless....good for nothing...all i can do is blaming myself...but not doing anything abt.....ARGH! i dunno...no dreams...no goals...no talents....dun i hav any strengths at all? wat de hell i wan in life? fun? love? money?

no determination...no persistence....no motivation...onli satisfied for short terms goals...too satisfied with my normal....meaningless life....too cautious to step out of my secured life...scared of failures...dun like to take risk....

conclusion...wat good use am i to de world...to my family...to my friends...to myself?