joined singing club

hmm...today i had my ibm lesson...hmmm...neglected i feel...ard with my once close buddy...haha...she seem much further away from mi now...anyways...every1 has their own life...hmmm...oki..i was slacking in sch abit..talking to friends i met on de way...then...i meet ching to collect my clothes tat i reserved ytd...haha...broke liao...bot quite a few clothes...n its not all white...hahaa...hmm...then ching bot mi a brown dress as bday pressie...hahaha....then...i went home n hid my clothes haha...coz mum cfm will nag at mi lol...n i did something i reaali wanted...i joined singing club....coz life is so meaningless for mi...y not enriched it with some stuff...tat i reaali like...well...coz its seem too no life for juz studying n working...so i joined something tat i am interested in...

its was my 1st lesson...its was actually quite shocking coz i heard some ppl say its like choir but actually not realli ba...they do sing pop songs haha i guess...but more shocking news was tat new member had to sing a sing in front of de class lo...wa...i so scare .... n nervous...no music somemore...so i sang jia zuang by jolin coz cant realli think of any song...mind went blank lo....hmmm i tot its was onli 1hr but they kinda of drag it to 1hr30min...n they had another session like a make up for new memeber...oh those memeber also had overseas students...i juz met one who is from indonesia...she cant speak chinese...hmm...lucky "da jie" also inside so i got company...heehee....

well since...i cant be showered with luv by de other half...then i guess i showered my luv for my de other half on myself ba....n on my friends...i hav lived thru 20 years of single life...i still can live on for de rest of my life until my right guy appears ba...i tot i am patience enuff...well...guess wat all ppl will say...time is not ripe...haha thx for de comfort from de anoymous person...i shall not act like a hua chi n bai chi for now n i hope i stayed on like tat..but being a pessimistic mi...hmm its hard ba..hahaha...oki la enuff bullshit...i stop here...

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hmmm...being single is tough...even though some may say tat being single is forunate...but for some1 who yearns to be luv..to be dote on...its so terrible....n cruel...seeing those couples...so lovely dovey...but u can onli see...but not experience...a lot of feelings...envy...jealous....hate..lonely...

ppl often says...maybe de time is not right...tats y u r still single...its more like words of comfort...but i starting to doubt it....guess its juz a excuse to make u feel better....but i dun...wait till u r old to find de right 1?...i dunno maybe they dun appear at all...its juz all fairy tales...live happily ever after...alone i guess...

its feel so hurting...to always keep falling for ppl...n de most irritating thing is tat i cant stop myself...in de end i end up hurting myself de most...crapz...who can i blame? myself lo...for being a bai chi n a hua chi...always looking forward to de some1...but in de end..all this become illusion..they dun exist..life is so unfair...guess...truth is tat...guys go for pretty gers n nice figures like a friend of mine told mi...guess i dun belong in tat cateogory tats y i am still single...inner beauty is all shit now...

juz trying to voice out all my crapz n grumbling...n unhappi stuff...how i wish i hav no feelings..crapz...

haha siao mi!

hahahahaha...today sch is as usual...hmmm...slpt late last nite...not becoz of studying of test...hmmm is becoz i played dota until beri late...argh...then in de morning de rain woke mi up at 7...wasted...cant hav peaceful slp until 7.30...hmmm...then de test for sociology is a goner...haiz...tats wat i get for not studying..cant get anything into my head last min...old liao le...memory deteroiating...hmm...then lunch break we visit de popular coz its still early for class...i had cream chicken at mega bites...a lot of ppl soon flow in...hmmm...i got a exercise book from de shop..then i spotted a book!..."how to make ppl fall for u" oh my goodness...i pick up de book~...then browse a bit...haha...soon i grew interest in it...then serene reccomand mi another book...de authors r called allan paase n barbara...haa...she spotted another 1...i also interested...hmm is call men r mars n woman venus...hmm..maybe its abt relationship between man n woman...tata y i got a sudden interst...after sch i went to westmall library...n found out a lot of allan pease n barbara books r on loan...then i went to de popular bookshop n spotted de allan pease n barbara's book..."y men dun listen and woman cant read maps"...i dunno y...but I ACTUALLY BOUGHT DE BOOK!!!....well...cost 30bucks...argh..lol...i better read de book hahaha...but i am more interested in de 1st book i spotted...geeehzzzz....haha when did I change lol...i tot i hate boooks...y am i reading them now?...strange mi haha...oki la...stop shooooowwwingg off liao...there is nothing great abt buying books n read rite lol...okizz....all my weekends r busted SIGH...coz got a auntie cant work for 1 month...i need to work on ALL weekends...might even work on tue n wed...wa tat means i hav NO break....GEEEEEEEHHHHHHHHZZZZZZZZZZ...stupid -.-...no rest for mi!..poooorr mi...sad sad...no klunch!...shitty....*sigh*

crazy mi??

halo...been a long time since i post a entry...well coz lately nothing much happen...or nothing exciting happen so din bother to write...hmm last 2 days spent a lot of time on some hp matters...waste a lot of time...but manage to catch a movie called "john tucker muz die"...is a comedy la...abt his guy who is a flirt lo n has mani gfs...n these gfs n one "invisible" ger gang up to destroy him but he always got ways to counter them...well i guess one thing i learn from de movie is tat...one must be herself....her true self ba...n of coz not to hurt others using luv...coz the ger is so called invisble such as tat no 1 notice her at all...when she receive attention she was so into it n almost lost her true self...haha..

this makes mi think of myself...trying hard to get attention from others...but i juz cant...maybe i am too blend into de surrounding...no 1 hardly notice this stone on de ground...bahz

today i think i got crazy...i actually bot a storybook...crazy rite...coz mi...i hate books! how come i go n spend $$ on a book...anyway i juz bot it...its called mounting desire...hmmm...actually i din see de title...i juz read de back of de book to noe wats de story is abt...well its abt 2 beri diff characters...a successful romance writer...n he is still a virgin...coz he wanted to keep his 1st time de right 1...some1 he hope to spend his rest of his life with...n another ger who is a sexaholic...well...wat realli attract mi is de phrase "opposite attracts"...i guess tats y i bot de book...its a romance book lo...well inside got stuff abt sex n stuff...well de point is not tat la...is how they both attract to 1 another...guys is beri sweet n caring...beri sensative? maybe becoz he understand ger to some extent..but he dun realli noe tat if 2 person r realli in luv...he dun hav to resist it i guess...tats wat de story is abt?haha...hmmmi finished it in one day..haha...juz read on n on...tats is like so miracle? coz i dun read de -.- duno wat has come into mi lol...

guess i wrote this becoz i wanted attentioN!...haha wanted some to pat mi on de back to encourage mi to read more...crazy rite?haiz...

cool IscreaM

yea da jia hao...today i dun need to attend de sciology lesson coz teacher postpone it...therefore i slpt until 9 am then wake up haha...then i slack at home a while...n went to westmall to eat lunch...hmmm...i ate at de foodcourt in wm lo..coz dunno wat to eat...i use my bag to book a place...then i went to get my food...when i turn ard i saw a auntie sitting at my place!!!...omg...my bag is so big..dun tell mi she is blind lo...then nvm lo...i go n find another place to eat lo...bth some ppl...dun say liao later ppl say i bullie old aunties...oh..i ate japanese de katsu curry don...then i walk ard westmall...went to de basement n got a ice blended mocha from sweet talk......

then i went to sch for my afternoon class...met serene..n joyce sms mi...n attend class together...hmmm...today at de artrim....there is a small fair?....some stalls were set up...got some selling clothes...hoho got 1 is sell ice cream de! wahahaa...yogurt ice cream...nice! mi n others went to get de ice cream after class...can choose 3 diff fruits n mix together lol...hoho...i ate a bigger cup! cost 3bucks...hmm choose peach...carnberry n grape....then my other friends taste it...they say quite sour hhhaha...but for mi quite oki la beri delicioussssssss hahaha....hmm tats all for today ba..beri lame rite...oh ya n heard from a friend tat mei shan participate in de duet singing competition argh...too bad i was not there to hear her sing...dunno how was it..hmm kk tats all...

yea =P

haloHa...well i wan to update on ytd stuff...cant blog ytd coz my com was still infected with virus...hmm...ytd i got sch...until noon...then when i was suppose to go home...wei zhong(sec sch)...sms mi if i got any prog...then i met him at his workplace de bus stop which was near SIM...hmmm then we went to eat lunch...he was planning to try a new place...a resturant de...but we could not find a de place...n we decide to hav lunch at Toast...i had a turkey wrap n ice lemon tea...de ice lemon was realli from de fruit..freshly squeeze out de...not those normal kinds we had in de fast food...hmmm it was quite nice...de wrap was abt 7 bucks n de ice lemon tea was 2.50...wei zhong onli had a smoothie..n a peanut butter cupcake...de filling was like a choco mudcake i guess...

then he went to kinokuniya n bot books...a book written by kit chan...hmmm...after tat...we went to walk ard...we went to cineleisure...n catch a movie called "little man" haha its was realli a hiliarous movie lo...i luff thruout de show...u all should catch it...to hav a gd luff...i was luffing quite loud i guess...well...after movie...i accompany weizhong to shop a while...he keep asking mi if i wan to buy anything -.- which i dun...then de persistant weizhong...keep hinting mi tat he wan to eat at de resturant near royal embassy...hmm...we found de place...its was quite high class area....but i feel i dun fit in that place...n there is no picture in de menu...de words were profound so i dun realli noe wat was in tat dish...n i ordered penne..with olive oil..argh...i dunno tat pasta is cook with olive oil...coz i dun eat olive oil...but since i ordered it..i had to eat it...n weizhong had a rost pork...hmm he realli noe how to enjoy food...he say it was realli nice hahaha...he is quite picky on de taste of de food...before tat he had a sweet potato soup..after tat we had desserT!...we had choco musse(dunon how to spell!) cake n a choco mud cake...both were realli nice but i prefer de musse cake...n weizhong give mi such a big portion lo...until i was so full n sick of it hahaha...coz a bit too much liao...price was maybe a bit high...but affordable...n he treat mi de dessert...wahahah...even thou he was broke liao...

hmm...after tat...we walk ard somemore n took bus home lo...was raining tat time...all de day...weizhong do all de talking haaha...he got a lot of complains n critisim on ppl...n de thing i cannot tahan...is he keep commenting on guys...keep went on talking which drove mi nutz!...at nite i cannot tahan..so i was quite annoy liao...he got a lot of stuff to say sia...n keep asking y i am quiet de whole day...haha coz i am like tat de ma..also quite good...i dun hav to think of things to say coz got ppl entertain mi lol~~...oki la tatss alll...

went out...

yea...today nothing to do...actually is got thing to do...lazy la...hmm...i got wake up sms at 9am in de morning...was actually beri tired lo...haha...then de sms wake mi up haha...however it din bother mi much coz...i slack in bed until 10am++++..then i ate some pancakes..then i took a bath n went to sch to get some stuff ^^...after that...i went to meet ching...mi n her...got our eyebrows trim...its was my 1st time trimming...OUCH is all i can describle...but lucky she was fast...it was over beri soon...hmmm should say its look nicer now n neater?...coz my bro say look much nicer hahaha....i cant realli see de diff...but after looking at it for quite sometime....HMM...realli look much neater hahaha....after tat..i went to eat a bit coz was hungry lo...n went back to cck pei ching eat...we return home early la...coz she need to take dinner back for her dad...so now i am at home blogging...tml working -.-"...

1 week break

hmmm..today no sch today but went to a friend's house to study my math!...so din do much today onli went over to friend house lo...siannnnnnnn....now nothing to do..so decide to blog..also dunno wat to blog ba...haha...i dun realli share my private n personal stuff in blog de...its more of fa xie n reporting hahha...so nothing interesting also...also beri thankful tat some friends willing to reach out a hand for mi in my studies...hohooo...coz i din studied with some1 beside mi b4...1st time? duno haha...oh we studied in a country club's reading area...its was so cold inside lo...freezzing...next time muz bring jacket liao...muz study liao arrrrr...or else will die -.- SIGH!

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心像飘落的枯叶 踩在地上都会碎 我说我爱着你但你 却又假装你没听见 我像个隐形人 逗你开心逗你笑 但你终是看不见 难道要很多考验 还要很多道歉 才能够 证明我会爱你到永远 寻寻觅觅 我们还是 又 回到了原点 心像飘落的枯叶 要怎么熬过这冬天 好想抱你直到明天 怎么这双手又退却 我像个胆小鬼 只敢想像只敢暗恋 就是不敢放手追。。。。

currently kind of like this song recently...maybe its becoz of de meaning of de song ba...hahaha..din write out de whole load of lyrics...so tiring haha...haiiii...sian ar....envy those ppl who r attached...n those who found their de other part...wonder when will my turn come or never?...cant help it la...coz my thinking is -ve haha bo bian...also hard to find de other part hor...also muz find de right 1...grr...so ma fan...n hate those guys who treat gers as buddy....cant they see these kind of words hurt them?...stupid...wat a best way of rejecting ppl seh...in de end all they do is avoid u haha...bullshit =P