"studying" outing haha

yea...update on ytd....hmmm ytd...skip breakfast...was waiting for mum to pack lunch boxes home but she din haha...then bro suggested to go westmall to eat...then i suggested to go watch movie...n we watched twin mission....hmmm oki la...de show was quite funni...i think still got part 2 ba....n i treated my bro...hmm...i even bought nachos to eat...coz it was realli tempting...de cheese is realli cheesy haha...eat until de chips is more than de cheese hahaha....de cheese also not beri watery...quite nice....but i guess de cheese n nachos...made my cough worse hahah...

today...met up with joyce n alvina to study our econs...we had lunch at mos burger n then started to study...1st chapter of macro....took us a few hrs...then we went for a break...alvina went to buy toto n i went to de toilet...joyce went to get her cosmetics stuff...then bought tickets to watch "Follow de law" movie n was back at mos burger to study again...then ard 4+ we went to toilet again n bought popcorns n old chang kee stuff to eat...coz were pretty hungry...then...watch movie lo...hahaa...after movie...went to a nearby kopitiam to hav dinner...i was not beri hungry...coz ate alot of junkies during de movie...then joyce ordered zhi cha...she ordered bbq stingray...sambal kang kong...n a plate of shell like stuff duno wats its name...well i din eat tat...coz i dun realli eat shell stuff except for crabs lol or lobster or crayfish...all this is cooked with chilli...beri chi ji for my throat hahaha...we ate until beri full lo...alvina ate a lot of rice today...surprisingly lol...1st time...coz all de dishes r spicy...so muz eat with rice haha...then we were beri full lo...i din ate a lot n din finished my rice or my drink....we went back to sembawang plaza...n went to de arcade...joyce n alvina played de shooting game...then they played de drum game...watching them play was pretty fun haaha....n they seemed to enjoy de game alot n even called serene to meet up with us to play lol...but serene seems unreluctant ba lol...then de aunties at chamelon called mi to work on wed -.-...i got econ exam tat day lo...so funni...still ask mi go work...haI~...auntie old liao...told her le but she forget...then reached home at 10pm today lo....even got study but still study beri little hai...oki la...tats all lo...

talk to myself....

hmmm....so sad...when i wish to find someone to talk to....there cant seem to be one around....where hav they gone?....muz have beeen forgotten...guess i should stop bothering ppl liao...n find things to do...when i wanted attention...i got none.....guess i should give myself own attention...since i cant be bothered....no 1 will bother too ba...sadist...live in my own world...
so sad...
am i so irritating until no 1 wans to reply mi....
if u hate mi...juz tell mi...i shall leave from ur world...
if u dun need mi...juz tell mi....i shall disappear from ur sight...
dun ignore mi...coz its juz hurts...
wat i wan is simple...juz a friend to talk to...
guess its too difficult...

1st time watch movie alone!

yes...i did somethingi never did in my life b4...watching movie alone lol....well it may sound beri common...but ppl might think its weird sometimes...well...i dun care lol...i wanted to watch a movie...well there is a lot of nice movies this time...so if i dun watch it...i think it will juz pass mahz...ask my bro to watch with mi but he dun wan...so feeling quite disappointed n pissed off...i went to watch it myself....haha...its nothing special...juz tat there is no 1 to talk to...no 1 to share ur thoughts with...no 1 to luff with lo...but its a 1st time hahaa....i watched de epic movie...welll was realli wasting $$...haha...coz it was rather lame show...ending was stupid too....so ppl dun watch it sia...waste ur $ for 1hr30min show...not worth it lol....hmmm...after de movie...i walk back home lo....i juz like de feeling of walking back home...though its a 15min to 20 min walk...makes mi feel relax...much happier ba...coz i see de trees n de sky....though some sands got in my slippers....juz listening to my radio n walking on de street...feel refreshed again...all de baddy moods will wear off...sometimes u juz hav to do things alone ba....coz not every1 has time for u de....its sad...but sometimes u might juz wan some "alone" time....well i dunno...sometimes i dun like being alone...makes mi feel empty...i juz like de company of others...haha oki la....mock is coming le wor...i am in deep shit -.- k~

nutty mi...

hmmm...today i work from 11 to 7.30pm....was pretty tired after i woke up...like i was having a hangover...dunno y....today..one of de aunties cook for every1 of us....vegetarian stuff....but got add 1 fried egg n ba gua...lol...so not all vegetarian....coz our supervisor not working so...brought some food...usually de supervisor will nag n nag de...so today we r FREE lol....after lunch...my stomach was kind of bloated...then got stomachache n went to toilet...of coz its not de auntie's food la...after going toilet i still feel bloated n tired....was feeling quite down...maybe pms?...dunno....juz see a lot of couples comin in de shop...feel irritated....jealous ba...all de negative thoughts came rushing in again...after work...i juz feel like buying some stuff...hoping it will make mi lighten up....went to comics shop...sigh...no new books to buy....then went to popular...n bought a book for $20....well call mi crazy i juz like reading this kind of book oki....-.- i am not a scientific documentry or business thinking mind of person....so i read THIS kind of book...dun luff at mi -__-...its juz something i can distract myself from....*sigh*....

juz some pictures

mi~


mum~


map of indoor theme park


map of outdoor theme park

update on CNY

17/2
yea..juz an update...my renuion dinner was spent at my relative house...we had buffet at my dad's side grandma house...onli a few families were there...grandma was pretty funni...coz she kept grabbing de good stuff to eat....well...she behaves like a kid now..dun realli recognise ppl le...will recognise her kids n some grand children ba...eh then after staying there for a while...my mum n i went over to my uncle's home to stay overnite...coz we were going to genting early in de morning...n there is no taxi available early in that morning...my cousin aka worm or ah chong lol...n i chat for a while...he was preparing some stuff for the 6hrs bus ride to n fro....coz it was realli long jorney...dl some songs into de psp...then we slpt at ard 12...n suppose to wake up at 5+ in de morning to catch de coach at 6.30...

18/2
woke up early in de morning...brush my teeth...n prepared to go out....ate some breakfast...my uncle drove the 6 of us(including himself) to bukit panjang...then pass the car to my elderest cousin...6 of us went to genting...they were my uncle, his wife, their maid, worm , my mum n mi...lol...the coach was realli comfortable...chairs can be lowered down...n there was tv which we can watch....worm n mi din slpt much on de way there...we were listening to music...watching tv...eating some tibits on de way there...they even provide some bread with kaya n butter for breakfast....stop 2 times for toilet breaks....then we reached genting highlands at 1+...check in at ard 2....de hotel we check in is call de First World Hotel...room was oki la...standard room for 2....one thing is tat de tv in my mum n my room cannot be used lo...so cannot watch tv...we went to hav lunch at de upper levels....de hotel is connected to de indoor theme parks...where de games n shops r connected....then de indoor parks r linked to de outdoor parks...there were other 4 more hotels linked together...so de place were pretty big....we went to get lunch...i ate de laksa over there...it was oki la...but de pricing is same as singapore lo...not much difference...worm din wan to eat de noodles coz he find it too common n wanted to try something diff n worth de price...so even though his parents ask him to eat ...he refused lol...de rest of them ate wanton mee...then they went to de casino...worm n mi din wan to go in...so we were told to meet at de hotel room for dinner lo....n so mi n worm went to explore ard de mall...looking for food...then worm tried the kenny rogers....their food realli sux lol...chicken was acceptable...was not as dry as singapore's de got mash potato sauce on it...then de mash potato,potato salad, coleslaw n muffin was not nice at all...eeee but it is a bit cheaper than singapore's...de drinks there were damn ex lo...after that we shop ard de mall n went back to de hotel room at ard 4+...coz worm was afraid that the rest of de grp will go back to de room early lo...so i stay at his room watching tv n resting....until 5+ when de rest came back....we ate dinner at de Lake View Restuarant....the food came quite fast...but its was not as hot...its was like they were prepared beforehand liao...so not so nice...then we walk ard de mall n walk to de 2nd hotel linked to de 1st....n then went back to our hotel room to rest...

19/2
woke up early in de morning at 6.15..to catch breakfast buffet at 6.30....there was not variety of food lo...not so nice too lol...so i juz eat some stuff...then we went to walk ard de shops...auntie wanted wanted to gamble so she went to casino...uncle joined us for a while in de morning...took some pictures then he went back to his hotel room coz he was not feeling well...decided to meet at 12 for lunch...then de 4 of us...my mum,worm n their maid went to play de theme parks...both indoor n outdoor....outdoor part din play a lot...coz de rain come n go...n need to wait until de rain stop..so we missed a lot of games lo...but we still manage to play a lot of times of bumber car lol...coz its was still early...not much ppl...noon starting got a lot of ppl...de tickets we bot is for whole day de...so we can play one whole day...then we play de indoor roller coaster ....which was no kick haha....then sit de slow worm ride which tour us ard de mall n de outdoor theme park...it was after de worm ride we decided to get de outdoor tickets coz there was realli a lot of fun games outside too...then...we played de spinner...sit on de chair n it spin de haha...we feel a bit dizzy after tat ....played de bumber boats...where i kept chasing my mum n she keep runnin!!!...in de end is was mi who get wet all de time!!!...evil lol...played de flying dragon but was not realli tat exciting...played de gold kart too...wanted to played de mine coaster but too bad...when it was our turn...it rained..n got to stop...we had pizza for lunch...dinner we went to de 2nd hotel...n eat in a chinese resturant...food was oki la...walk back to de hotel room after tat...mum n their maid was tired liao so they rest in their hotel room...mi n worm...went out...n walk ard...taking one of de indoor rides...we were also beri tired le...went to places we haven realli gone in...then got a drink...time flies by de time we got back to our room it was already 12...so i wash up n slpt lo...i din hav a nice slp...coz i keep waknig up after 2hrs of slp...hai...so was pretty shag...

20/2
woke up at de smae time again to catch de sucky breakfast buffet....then we went to walk ard de mall...n get de bus tickets back home...had some dim sum...which was beri ex...parent bought some food back to sg...n i had a ice cream lol~...greedy mi got 3 flavours lol...beri ex...18.90 ringget...i got world class chocolate...which seems normal...then a chocolate dip strawberry ice cream n a cherry ice cream...de stall name was called Baskin Robbins haha...had strawberry toppings for my icecream...he even add whipped cream n some almond nuts ba....eat until i beri happy~hahaa...then we rested in de hotel room for a while...n had lunch...n got on de bus back home...de way home was down hill...their maid got giddy...n when de bus stop she vomitted....my mum was feeling dizzy too...then at de 2nd stop...worm vomitted lol...i thought i wll vomitted too but i din haha...i was resting throughout de jorney...de bus we took was de actual coach we were suppose to take at de 1st day...it was actually not as nice as de trip here...there was no tv...the lever for de chair sux....n de strangers sitting behind us...dun let us lower our chair to de lower height lo...makes it even harder for worm n mi to rest lo...kns...was almost in de upright position...i wonder how they can slp like tat lo...my neck was aching lo...there was a little traffic jam coz there was accident...i ate chicken burger during one of de breaks...it was realli NOT nice lol...n bot some fruits up de bus to eat...after we reached sg...we took taxi back home...it was ard 9+ tat time...was pretty tired n went to bed at 11+...

tats...how i spend de chinese new year lo...n today i was back at work...brought a lot of mandrin orange...lol..for de auntie...bai nian ma lol...got a few ang baos...damn sad...onli receive 3 ang baos from relative...usually can get 100bucks from relatives side...this year drop liao...this year manage to add up to 100 bucks is from my boss n some aunties working at chamelon lo..haI~...was hoping to use de $ to get a new pair of specs...looks like no hope le...*sob sob*....oki la tml still got work...i going to rest liao...spend a lot of time writing this long blog! lol...

thx to all aunties for giving mi Valentine gift n rose!

yes! a beri pleasant surprise from de aunties working in chamelon...they actually bot a gift n real violet rose for mi for valentine...so sweet of them....was realli touched lo....i was still questioning them tat r those realli for mi lo...the aunties are so cute la...so dote on mi...hee hee...i was realli...omg...1st valentine gift n rose from those aunties...awwww.....realli touched....hee...even though i am single but i still got de chance to receive those kind of gifts which i never did until now....realli break de record lol...i juz loss of words sia...but realli happi to receive them hee hee....even though i working tml hahaha...thx to all de aunties lol..so dote on mi hee..heee....heee =)

hot day!!

yea...today i got work....wake up at 10....hmm...ate some breakfast come lunch n prepare to go work...today was a pretty hot day....i could feel de sun rays on my skin...so warm...hmmm...today is a sat...so there is alot of ppl shopping...n chinese new year is coming liao...so more ppl r out there...today i met rosiah on de way to work...then the 1st thing i heard is tat AIR CON SPOIL...oh gosh it was realli warm inside lo...then some lights were turn off...coz it was realli warm...hai...then i got to stock up new stock...so time passes quite fast for mi...coz i was doing something...eh...then had my dinner...then was at de cashier for a while...n yea.. finally got my pay...hmm...then today we close quite late...sian....so ard 11 then reached home...n now blogging lo...haha...oki la ....tml no work hohohohoh....goodie...

hoho heavy lunch

eh...today is last day of stats lesson...today all de jie meis are present except for da jie lol...hmmm...stats lesson was super boring....wasn't even listening to de teacher...eh...end up having drawing class...hahahaha....drew animals like mouse...eh tortise...lol...beri bo liao lahz...to keep us awake lo...then after stats....we go pay for our e-revision thingy....then we went out for lunch lo...kath din join us...coz she wans to go back to slp as she had work overnite for her IS assignment....joyce was also tired...2 nitez din slp becoz she has to attend her great grandaunt's funneral...so we din went far...but joyce suggested to eat pizza hut lol...eh...nearest shopping we thought of is cck...but serene was not on de way...so we decide to go to sp...coz they were also craving for KFC....hahaha...then sp has both of them...so we took a taxi down to sp...haha...n we went to foodcourt 5 lo...we ordered a lot seh....had 1 medium hawaiian pizza n 2 drinks...i even ordered one 2piece chicken meal....joyce also ordered tat but change de colestraw to cheese fries...n shared with alvina i think?...then serene onli had her KFC meal coz she had dieorrea after she eat pizza...so she skip de pizza...omg...we were realli full lo...joyce, alvina n mi share de pizza haha...this time alvina not bad seh...ate 3 1/2 slices of pizza n some cheese fries haha...muz giv encouragement lol...eh...i n joyce onli had 2 slices of pizza...realli was so full...haha...it looks like we r celebrating after exam but no!!! it was juz de beginning lol....i think if we were realli going to celebrate...i bet we might ordered more food than this hahhaha....oki la...then every1 went back lo...

well at home...i was realli not in de mood to study...so i watch ouran sch anime this afternoon....n took some pictures of mi ACT CUTE....eh...lol...so pai seh...but still i wan to post it hahha...once in a while bu yao lian yi xia...hahaha....oki la~ i stopppped here le ^-^

hurray!

yea!...juz now supervisor called mi...heard tat i got exam on mon..so ask mi if i can work or not....if not she will get others lol...of coz i told her if possible i dun wan work!...lol then she say oki!!! hahaha...so happy...well yea...i guess i got to thank other aunties for telling her...coz i dun dare to tell her hahaha....welll thx sia lol...

eh tats all ba haha....nothing much happen today...hmm...juz went for nageb class...revision...then stay back in sch n study with kath,alvina n rebecca...hmm...we seach high n low for benches to study lo...climb stairscase until i almost die lol...exaggrating lol...eh...then we found a room...student coucil room...wow...de freezer room lol...super cold inside...then mi n alvina n rebecca...went to packed lunch...when we start eating...then realise short of 1 fork lo...then kath use her hand to eat -.-...eh....after lunch we start studying...well unfortunately...i was not able to concentrate at all...i guess after nageb class...already cant concentrate...then...there is conversation going on lol...so cant realli concentrate...n with a freezing environment makes it even harder to study...i all think of is beri cold...n de sofa...arr...makes mi slpy lol....
then i feel tired..n restless...so lost concentration...argh...so stupid...feel like slping now already....weak mi...

inspiring....

hmmm...today post will be a long one i think hahaha....eh...lets see...today went out with kath...to buy my black pants...for work de...hmmm...went to this fashion...walk around...but those clothes...dunno la...kind of cmi haha...hmm....kath plan to study de...but...we shop until 2 but she needs to go off at 3...so i told her might as well go walk walk window shopping...so pai seh...waste her precious time to study....de atmosphere was not realli fun actually....though we did chat around...juz feel its was not realli rite...guess every1 is tense n stress for exam...n depress over some stuff...oki....lets see...after tat...kath went for her tuition class....so i went back too...instead of heading home....i actually went to de jurong east library....well its kind of funni....i usually hate going to de library but y did i go there??? lol well i dunno...ppl do change i guess....

de books i look at...r more of ....self improvement books...rather than storybooks ba....i was looking at de physchology section...(always hav been interested in this kind of books...but i hate those thick thick bookS!)...eh...then i look...n seach to see if there is anything interesting books to read....then i came across...one...babara's confidence boook....wow...realli suits mi...so i read de 1st few pages....but somehow i went to check on other books as well...one is abt de dream book..seems interesting tooo...so i went to find a seat....i start reading de confidence book....ah...its realli sounds like wat i am going through...which is bad....

i cound not remember all de points...but...well some were realli hard to forget....3 kind of confidence....tat we muz build up...1st is emotional behaviour...argh...forget de 2nd 1.....stupid memory fail mi...last 1 was spiritual behaviour....often...ppl with no confidence has a low self esteem...which is so like mi....then...often ppl need to feel confidence once they hav accomplish something...but this is not true confidence...true confidence is within u...cannot be taken away from u de.....well...de book even say...ppl muz hav a dream n goal...in order to live life to de fullest...accomplishing those things which u noe u can do it its not satisfing...we r onli limiting our life...on de things we do...had to take on challenges n not to avoid them...tats how u gain confidence...take it step by step...so when u start on it...u r slowly building on it...eh...

ppl usually likes to be in negative or low self esteem...becoz of de previlages they get from it...such as more attention n sympanthy ba...n encouragement....becoz ppl tend to encourage u to get back on feet...tats y...ppl prefer to be on de negative side...so they dun hav to do anything...ARGH...tats so like mi...always need ppl to assure my existance....de book even mention....we muz find out wat we realli feel...coz we always hav confused feeling...after tat...talk it out...so tat it wont bother us?...hmm...

well...now i am confused haha...coz...i forget wat de book is abt liao...oki...in summary....i feel...i should change...to build up my confidence...so i can be wat i really wan to be...n not juz to please ppl so tat...they will like mi....i need to start loving myself...n noe that my existance is a nescessary...i am needed...ppl in life...go through all de mistakes n failures b4 they r realli sucessful...they r also scare of new stuff they encounter...so muz try n deal with de challlenges...de book was realli inspiring...i should stop finding excuses on de things i cant do le....all else...i wont fulfill much in life...like tat i will be forever unhappy...forever bin chao chao...well..realli need to change...so ppl also cannot make use of mi...or manipulate mi....muz hav confidence in oneself...its not showing off....i guess its sign of luving wat u do with ur own ability...n its alright to ask ppl for help de...coz wat u acheieve is much greater...hahhaha...those ppl who likes to tell u how good they are without u asking abt it...usually is not tat good as they claim they r...usually is opposite bahz lol...coz they need to reassure themselves tat they hav confidence tooo...well...applies to some ppl bahz...might be true n might not?well...realli good book to read...n its not thick...spent 1hr+ to finish de book...but it realli can teach u something....tats inspiring book....believe in urself!!!

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.....sad....

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......troublesome kid....

......burden....

.....depressing.....

stupid sia!!!!!!!

updateS

eh...lazy to think of a title...hmmm...so its juz update lo...hahaha...ytd...after sch...meet up with zhong...hmm...accompany him to medi cure n shop lo...hmm...class was as usual boring...n serene n joyce din turn up for class hahaha...(opps some1 gonna kill mi =P)....eh...then we took train to bugis lo...i had beef bowl at yoshinoya for lunch lo...coz dun wan to hav dim sum buffet....too ex le ...hahaha...now kind of broke hai...then went to look for de shop he wan to medi cure lo...but din manage to find de shop...but we exercise a lot...coz we climb de stairs...walk all de way around bugis lol...n to bugis village...n back to de bugis junction... then he walk in to a medicure shop n do his nails lo....went to walk ard....went to kinokuniya...look at books for a while...then zhong msg ber to meet for dinner...before meeting ber...we went to try our luck at a famous donut shop at raffles city...hmmm...we waited for 2hrs ...but de queue din move at all lo...so wasted our time there...then we met ber at westmall for dinner lo....we walk ard westmall for a while...n chatted at mac donalds...since we haven met for a long time...ber's hair has grown longer le wor~...lol usually is beri short de hhaha...eh then we took bus home lo...hmmm...tats all lo...as for today...i am working....for tml...i am working too ....hai...exam soon...argh...hate it....