klunch again~

yes...today i went to klunch again...with aku n derek...actually should be yigao aku n mi de...in de end he put us areoplane again..which make aku beri angry...well....becoz is he say he wan to go k lunch de...in de end this little piggy...put areoplane lol...well i kena twice liao...so ermm...as long got ppl pei mi go klunch can liao...but aku beri angry...say he's an ass lol...then dun wan to talk to him when he called...keep passing his phone to derek....hahaha...in de end we din meet him coz...we already told him is at paradiz centre...then he went to cineleisure i think -.-....beri funni lo last nite i tot aku settle liao lol...but 1st time see aku so angry so i was qutie surprised also...coz my impression...aku is not those kind will throw temper 1 lol...hmmm...de lunch is still as sucky like de 1 i recently went to...then i din finished it...becoz today got 3 person so sing lesser but nvm la i juz sang recently lo...ahaha...

after tat we went to watch movie...we watched pirate of de caribbean...hmm...part 2 lol...we din watch part 1 b4 lol...but de show lasted quite long i think...then we watched at ps...de popcorn not so nice as cathly 1 lol...but i bot 8.50bucks 1...so is a lot of popcorn..then i pass some to aku hahahaha...de show quite funny la...got part 3 later i think lol...oh ya...n one of aku n derek friend joined us when i went to de toilet -.-..dunno when he pop up de but we din even say hi lol...hmm after tat i went home for dinner lo...hmmm...n i juz finished arguing with my bro -.-...super angryyyyyyyyyyyyyy...becoz of small matter tat he dun let mi use de com...hahahahaha...stUPID...humph...oki la...today i wear my new top...felt like a little princess hee hee...but who care~ i like can liao...wahahahah...oki la i stop here le....

gd news bad news?

hmmm...today i met my friend wz from sec sch...we went to k lunch at cck...hmmm..i reached early so i bot some snacks to eat heee...coz was hungry from previous nite...i onli ate fishball noodles at 5+ n had to last until morning...then we sang couple of new songs lo...i still cannot handle them lol...no confidence haha...n tat stupid wz still ask mi to go join de superstar....crazy sia...ask mi to embarassed myself in front of ppl lol...then after tat i go n search for my slping bag coz this coming tue to thur is my orientation camp at pasir ris lo...but it is either sold out or the shop dun hav it lol...then i accompany wz to his work place n fill form for interview...working at his workplace....

n i got news from him tat his supervisor might call mi down for interview...but my current job -.-...so got to see how tml lo...if they can let mi stay...then i see lo...hai so frustrated...n got camps comin...n sch starting...like so mani things happen at 1 time...tat i cant handle...worry n think too much liao...ZZZZZZ...confuseddddddddd arrrrrrrrr....anyway i got my slping bag at westmall juz now hahahahahahaha....oki la dunno wat to write already -.-....HAI!

saddddddddd losing job soon....

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.......as u can see from de above title...i might be losing my job soon...coz my sch is starting...n my working schedule is not flexible...sad...then they might not wan mi le lo...sad lo...its not i dun wan to work...is ppl dun wan mi...hai...sad...if realli cannot...then got to find other job liao lo...which will be super hard liao lo...coz most of them dun wan student lo...wat to do...sad...no mood le...sad sad sad le...coz my mum wan to work part time for my own expenses...hai...its not i dun wan..*sigh*....guess got to start looking for job liao lo...ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....so frustrating...tml going klunch de lo...now also no mood liao...damn...feel so rejected lol!...guess i am exaggrating lol....but cant help it also la...their system is like tat lo...wat to do?...if dun wan mi then i leave lo...*SAADDDDDDDDD*

busy n tired day!

yessssssss.....today is a super duper tiring day for mi!yes yes...today i work from 1.15 to 9.45....then...starting one of my colleage was sick...she needs to go home n "xie"....coz her stomach was bloated...her stomach not in good condition nowadays...n her face went realli white...so she went off for 1hr n our supervisor who was on off day went to take her place for a few hrs...then my supervisor ask mi to stock up de comb section...actually is for de new ger to learn but she wan to quit liao so no use teaching her...then my supervisor ask mi to do lo...i never done it b4 lol so i juz do wat i can lo....there is like a lot of kinds of combs lo...then after tat...i go take my break...then another auntie ask to mi help her pack some other stuff lo...help here n there lo...then stock up my stuff too...each person has certain section taken care of ma...then i work part time de so i juz help out when i can lo coz my section is not tat big lol...then aunties have to take care of de cashier...lucky i dun need to be cashier lol...so realli busyyyyyyyyyyy lo....hope got new ger come n help out sia...but also quite hard lol...coz they start few days...scare liao lol...coz muz handle lots of stuff lol..but also din ask them to handle ALL at a time ma...maybe 1st few days standing for 8hrs beri tiring...then muz look out for ppl...stock up goods n serve customer ba...tats y they work few days...then got scared off lol...but busy also good la...at least i got help aunties...then de time also pass by quite fast lol...but realli realli realli tired lo...lucky tml i off...wahahaahahha....can restttttttttttttttttt....oki la tats all~

food fair *_*!!!

yeah...today i off coz i need to take my diploma cert n send it to relc for my sim uol stuff...so should be wake up at 9...but early at 8 my uncle called to ask if i wan any breakfast...then...i went to lie on my bed...after a while ard 8.30...angeline sms mi so i replied her...then i lie on bed again...then ard 9 my uncle came back...so i woke up n wash up lo...n also get prepared to go out...

then meet rebecca...n went to sch together....after taking our cert...rebecca ate de chicken rice she missed at sp...then we went to orchard area....coz de relc is at orchard...then we also visit ching on de way...hmm...we saw a pregnant woman...pushing her pram...her dress code was like OMG...tight green top...n super short tight shorts...n her hair is like 2 pony tails..n wearing her green colour matching boots...which is like "no comments" lol...

ching was working in taka...so we went there...on the way...we do window shopping...then i saw de food fair...i was "YESSSSSSSSSSHHHHH this is my heaven~~~~~!!!" lol...food looks more appealing than clothes hahaha...clothes r rebecca n ching's heaven lol...then i bought ermmm....de sausage fries...japanese pizza n i tried de japanese green tea icecream lol...de sausage fries is like hot dog with coated with flour...n with cubes of french fries...fried of coz...then they had de chilli sauce n mayonise...its prettttty mouth watering ...hee heee....de japanese pizza is also beri delicious...much better than de 1 we had in pasar malam....its has octopus pan fried...hmmm....its mixed with flour...veggies n egg...then there is de bbq sauce ...mayonise n a lot of seaweeds scatter on top of it...realli nice n hot heee...coz sometimes in those pasar malam they r already cooked n left there so its not tat nice...n de icecream is reallllli expensive lol...4 bucks! for a cone lol...i wanted de berry blues but they ran out of it lol...de japanese pizza cost 5bucks n de sausage fries cost 2.50 bucks...all quite exp lol...but it was realli filling...

after tat we accompanied ching to hav lunch...at lucky plaza...a malay stall which sell fried chicken rice...well its seems delicious n famous coz there is a lot of ppl in queue...then she went back to work...so i n rebecca go shopping a bit more until her work end ard 6...rebecca went home tat time...then i accompany ching to bugis...then went shopping again...n i spend $$ again omggggg bought another top....*shake head*...then we went to pasta mania for dinner...wow...spend a lot of $$ today lol...n i walk whole day today...from morning to nite...ard 10 then reached home...legs r aching now...lol but its a fufiling day! i get to try new food so i quite happi! lol...coz i dun mind spending aaaaaaaaaaa bit more on food *giggles* lol~...tats y i beri fat...oh ya...then a new guy we met during orientation start to sms rebecca lol...seems tat he is into rebecca lol...well rebecca always had all de atttraction from guys...hahahaha...well tml got work again...n i am super tired...so might turn in soon...hmm tats all~

orientation...

hmm...today wake up super early n went for de orientation which is at 8.15....still we(i n rebecca) were still late as usual lol...8.30 then reached...hmm...then they form us into smaller grps for games n stuff lo...hmm...still quite fun la...know some friends n got hold of their numbers....worst part is tat when we played de games which is abt remember n calling out other's ppl name...my name got change lol...pronouce wrongly le....which is so pathetic...tats 1 bad thing without a christain name i guess lol...harder to pronouce n remember...lol....we had a lot of games lo...got 1 game is abt transporting ppl across with onli limited number of chairs...imagine we 14 ppl on 5 chairs lol...its so squeezy until we had to hug one another hahaha....oki la...play until i perspire like water tap lol....well i did start to talk to ppl asking their names lol...there is onli a few guys in our team...got 6 lol...got 2 of them quite funny la but one is like ah beng lol...got tatooo n he smoke but he dun like branded stuff? lol...the other 1 is like a skinny monkey lol...oki la...i did enjoy myself n had fun with the games..our group leader also funny la...after games...they got dance n cca talks...man we were already starving le lo...coz we din had breakfast lol...n spend all our energy on games already...they got us MAC....which was like shitz lol...mac chicken burger inside no veggies or mayonise...n a apple pie...tats all -.-...how filling was tat lol...well i din join any cca...coz too slack lol...then another reason i wan to work part time...scare de time cannot manage well...soooooooo...i skip cca lol...even though its a chance to know more ppl...hmmm...then de cca members keep approach us n tell us to join this n tat lol...n encourage us to join de tennis camp...well.....tempted but recently my workplace short of ppl...so dun wan to trouble them lo....super tiring day...guess i slp soon too lol...tml going to take my cert n stuff....okizzzzzzzz tats all i guess~

nothing special....

hmm...nothing much happen lo...past few days hav been working lo...today then got off...but i went to out with rebecca...planning to go swim but i forget to bring my swimsuit along...so in de end we onli get to go walk walk ard northpoint.....i went to eat burger king...n we go shop around...i bought a baggy top...its like milky white in colour...ermm...n i got a jeans as well...lol for 20bucks at hang tangs...its a offer lol...then i get it a week later coz need to alter....hmmmde top was a esprit top....erm n it cost onli 10bucks lol...so i bought it...hmmm...after tat..i went to celebrate my grandma birthday...went to eat buffet...haha at a relative house...n my dad contribute to de satays...hmm...then here i am now...at home updating my blog...oh ya..tml working early shift...hmmm...nothing much abt my life lo...

lonely?

hmmm...off day today...but suddenly feel like writing down my feelings....lol...well as de title stated is not gonna be a happi feeling?....hmmm...i juz msn someone...but yet...i feel so distant n lonely talking to him....do i still like him?....even we still "talk" in msn...i dunno...de feeling is always so sad...n sorrowful...well we r not tat close...he seems fine to mi...like nothing ever happen...but we did not meet after tat...guess it would be awkward...maybe he is avoiding mi bahz to prevent more trouble from happening...he din ask mi out anymore le....i also dun wan to trouble him....

cry?...nahz i dun feel like crying...but juz got this feeling....its like talking to a stranger...like a hi-bye friend...n somehow no connection...not even friends i guess even though he tried to be after i ask him tat if we were still friends...hmmm...guess he dun visit ppl bloggy...heee...so pheww....sian...i feel so down talking to him...how come? coz of rejection?....maybe bahz...maybe...he has his barriers up against mi...i am juz like standing in front of a high n huge n tall concrete cold wall....looking up into grey sky...cant find any door or entrance....its hard to forget...but i told myself to gave up already....but i still looking for hope...sillllllllly sia....



am i still a kid?
i feel so...even my looks r mature...in my heart...i am still a kid?
haven i grown? mature?
lol...i am gonna be 20 soon...my thinking is still a kid ma?
have i become stronger? or i am still weak as ever....relying on others' help...
yes...dependent on others...i cant be independent...forever relying on my friends...
is tat a weakling i see in myself?
am i still in shadows of my friends? i tot i come out of it...but hav i walk in again?
my life...has no meaning...juz live by each day...
do i exisit?...does my exisitance matter?...
r these stupid thinkings?....i am still as naive...or wat u call stupid?
am i living for myself?...who am i living for....my own happiness?
lol guess i have gone bananas XD

birthday?

lol...today after work...i went over to javier's birthday party....sian was sabotage lol...coz i am de onli ger there...n he say he dun see mi as a ger!!!...stupid him lol...then...i met his friends...one of them was Mark...who was my sec sch classmate...so coincidencial lol...he was javier's piano friend...then we went over to his house...n his mum has already laid out all de food...i ate quite little...partly becoz i am surrounded with strangers lol!...n i dun eat as much in de nite ...hahaha...but they r pretty funni when they talked abt NS stuff...de things they do in camp...n those eerie encounters they met in de haunted camps...realli scary n funni when they talked abt it...lol...javier's house got a puppy tooo....she is called yuika? lol beri naughty doggie...likes to bite ppl when they tried to touch her...then she likes to run around...chasing n smelling ppl socks haaa....hmmm...i juz had dinner n a cake then i went home...they plan to make javier drunk lol...guess they were planning to go lans...which i wont like it lol...but i guess i went pretty red when i met those guys -.- *sigh* lol...wat to do lehz...sure pai seh ma....but oki la...at least got enjoy myself...hmmm....doggie was cute also...hee hee...sian tml maybe got work...argh!!! working 3 days straight...tml still got work...super sian lo... n tired -.-...k i guessi stop now!!!