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hmm....today i got work...sian...as usual was working lo...then today after my "dinner"...i heard from de auntie that de supervisor accuse mi for stuff i din do lo...kns...everything also is de supervisor say de...say tat i ordered too much nail remover...so bullshit...i told n even showed her de type of nail remover which was left beri little lo...kns....so idiotic...watever...today she din came to work...so shitty lo...hate ppl accusing mi of stuff i din do...scarly is her fault n she is juz trying to find others to blame....old liao still wan to say ppl...dun she even noe tat all de staff dun like her at all becoz of her say 1 thing n doing another thing behind ppl back....ppl juz dun wan to ji jiao with her nia...kns....watever lahz...see mi beri nice good to bully....being a nice person is hard...another annoying stuff happen...coz i was working on sat n sun next week...got an auntie wanna off on tue lo....ask mi to work one more day...kns....y r ppl so selfish?....anyway i din take up de job lo....my exam comin soon still ask mi work...say wat rubbish....work more ma earn more $$...if i realli wanna work for more $$...i rather change job liao lo...but the auntie still oki la...not beri persistant after i told her i need to study...sigh...ppl r juz not understanding...being nice is not gd at all...coz...in de end...de 1 suffering is de nice person....so wat for be a nice ppl?...ppl onli will make use of u in de end....

sigh....tats y...ppl see mi so weak....hai...good to bully....how i wish i can be a baddie...zzzz....so nice for wat...also no use...no 1 will appreciate...when i need help...who will help mi?....i also dunno...de world is like tat de la...so unfair....n selfish....human beings juz sux...tats y i hate myself sometimes....helping ppl...in de end....ppl happi...i not happi....but who bothers?....bahz...forget it...tats how things work...its either de stong survive or de weak suffer in de end....

i dunno wat happen...these two days haven been slping well...woke up in de middle of de night....having dreams....waking up at ard 7+....maybe becoz of my body alarm...coz usually i wake up at 7.30 for sch...sigh...cant get a good night slp at all....even though i got no sch i also wake up at that timing....so its seems i got not enuff slp...juz now still got a big headache...sian....wats wrong with mi sia....hai...maybe dre pressure is building up....somehow i need to find ways to release it...or i will explode soon...helpppppppppppp mi -.-....sigh...