meet up with ching...

fri again...as usual stats class is as boring as ever...n today it ended at 12.30 which is a torture for us...today jenny was de 1st 1 who reached sch...it was raining since last nite till now...was realli nice to slp lo...so a lot of ppl was absent today hahaha...joyce n serene overslpt...n so din come for class lo...then today onli mi n jenny n delwin n kath attend de class lo....after sch today...kath accompany mi for lunch lo...on de way ken spotted mi but i din saw him la until he "tap" my shoulder...i was blur like gong gong la lol...then i had pizza for lunch...after tat...we went home lo...kath bus came 1st...n i waited for 20min for my bus....when i reached de interchange...i miss de bus again lo...so i waited again...then i saw my neighbour queueing up la...but i was outside sitting...then when i was about to board de bus i happen to meet mum...n then accompany her to jurong east to settle some stuff....i tot i could go home n rest b4 meeting ching...well in de end my mum n i walk walk ard jurong east until de time is up to meet ching lo...but we din walk for long...mum went home at 4...so i got to find a place to rot...argh...n went to de library....sian...i dun like library hahaha...well but i got no place to go lo...so i go there....walking ard trying to find a book to read....then i go to de pysocology section...spotted a book "crappy to happy"....haha b4 i saw tat book i saw some business management books...like business ethics haha...stupid sia lol....i read their 1st few pages but got bored...lol then i saw tat book...which seems to be interesting i start reading...tat book is quite meaningful...as de author wrote abt her experiences she go thru...all de feelings n points of views were written in there...some is similar to the situation we might come across lo....then there is always some points on "lesson learnt"...i read it n manage to remember some of de points like...."we must do wat we luv"..."must be true to ourselves"....some stuff abt luving urself n giving ur luv to others....in times we always consider how others might feel if we do certain stuff...but if we always comprise others...wat will happen to us? in de end is we r de ones being untrue to ourselves....then we will lose our true self...sometimes...de failures we go thru...helps us to bring out our new self n to learn lesson from them....if we feel bad abt ourselves...it will multiply....so we had to feel gd abt ourselves n then de "good" will be multiplied...when it does...ppl ard us will feel it...n they might feel happy too hahhaha...well its really interesting la...but i din borrow it...hmm...i onli read half of it...then i went to meet ching...sometimes...if u realli luv some1...u had to let him or her go...de author gave an example of her dying grandma...she dun wan her beluv grandma to go but then thinking back of her grandma's suffering...she finally let her go...n in end she gain more luv...i dunno how to explain it la...but its juz so touching lo....n she mentioned abt inner self...there is de adult self n de child self...as we grow older...our child self is lost...hmm...so sometimes its alright to be a child again doing the stuff u like...then u will be happier...rather than always doing n fulfilling other's ppl goals....their experiences is theirs not urs...one has to have his or her own goals....this sounds so true....

so...i thought abt my life...instead of always feeling negatively...n whine abt my past...i should let it go since its de past....well its hard to do it la...but wats de point of feeling sad...in life...we got to make choices...we decide our future...i guess i noe y i was upset ytd...maybe i was not true to myself...so i got angry abt myself....lucky ken msn mi....then i felt much better...the book mention...dun hate ur enemy...instead treat them as angel...hmmm...well i guess life is short...if we always remember all de bad stuff....we wont be happy as well...forgive n forget tats wat dave said b4 hahaa....well tat was a good book...it also said...something like...dun hang ard with ppl who always put u down..instead hang ard ppl who is always supporting u...in this way...u will feel happier...sometimes it is alright to be vunerable at times...its not a sign of weakness...instead it takes courage for one to be weak at times n expressing to others n letting others noe....hmmm...in fact i like tat book...coz tats wat realli happening in life...sometimes to please other ppl...u got to scarifice ur own goal....in de end de 1 being unhappy is urself....other goals become ur goal...its juz not right lo...

oki enuff of this lengthy stuff...i also dunno wat am i blabbling abt...hmm...i waited for the shuttle bus outside popular...damn it lo...waited for 20min+...then de bus came...then meet ching n had dinner at a hong kong snack store or something...ching ordered a lotus seed chicken...its like those tonic chicken stuff...actually i dun realli like eating tat but we juz try lo...n 3piece fried chicken...we ordered ice yuan yang...it was actually tea+ coffee...with a scoop of icecream...drink was not bad...but i got sick of eating de tonic chicken hahaha....then we went to jurong point coz ching need to get something from there...we walk ard then took a bus home...i took bus with ching....when i reached cck interchange....i waited for 20min++ again for the bus....zzzz....was getting beri tired...coz was out all day n de wet weather....then when de bus finally came...i felt tat i got a bit car sick...but manage to get over it..after i reached home...took a cold bath again n rest on my bed....now super tired...feel like slping soon hahaa....tml got work again sian...oki shall stop here..lol today's entry is sooooooooo long hahah....