stress level increasing....

yes...tats wat happen right now...stress lvl is increasing subconsiously....until its affecting my slp...i woke up at 6...started thinking again....well..tot a lot of stuff...n once i woke up...its hard for mi to get back to slp...tots will juz flow in....n i am suppose to wake up at 7.30....argh...subconsiously...as de exam approaches...even though in de consious mind....i dun feel anything...but at de head of de mind...i noe wats happening...pressure is increasing...pressure from work...from ppl....i am not gd at handling stress...the mind will juz think n think...tats wat happening in this morning...even though i am realli tired...but i can actually blog right now....guess its time to start studying if i cant go to slp...well if this goes on...i dunno if my body can take it...realli dun feel like working liao...as de pressure builds up..well if the auntie keep pushing mi ard...i might juz explode...n quit...but...no work...no $$....sux....dilema....cant slp at peace.....argh...coz sometimes...they r not understanding abt my situation...ppl might see mi calm n peaceful on de outside...but its worrying sick on the inside...i dun wan to waste my mum's $$...i dun wan to let her down...realli....but there is juz de no confidence n faith which is hinging de movtivation to study...fear....realli fear of failing....i might juz plunge down in darkness...n simply juz give up....well...i hope after i pend my thoughts down..i might feel better...hope so....