often think that de world super big...whereas i am juz a tiny little nobody....however i do wan to be noticed...who will spot this little tiny little nobody?...i am not as ambitious as others....guess i am too easily contented in life...enuff to eat...spend...a roof over my head is enuff....somehow life still seem meaningless...but i never dare to try to step out....to reach for something tat i really wanted...but i dun even noe wat i wan in life...all i do is sulked n blame de world....i dunno...every1 is so great...but mi?...no significant value....sometimes will think...with mi or without mi...life still goes on...i see no importance of my presence...but i guess no 1 bothers anyway...who will care...pity?i dun wan pity...but juz to voice out wat i feel...sometimes....its so hard....on 1 hand wan ppl to noe...but on de other hand dun wish ppl to see this side of mi....so kns rite...
sentosa trip agaiN~
yuppie...went to celebrate alvina belated birthday....sad thing is tat it was not full force again...hai...so sad lo...wats de point of making sure tat day was available...n every1 free...then suddenly got stufff pop out...sad without da jie again....saw jasmine working at sentosa lol...selling tickets...n she like my short hair~ heee....we pass alvina pressie once we settle down n took photos haha....alvina was shock to receive de pressie haha...its fun to see her making those faces hahaha...so we went to pawalan beach 1st...then soak in water....saw a bunch of guys in de water....they keep looking at our direaction lo...then after a while when kath reached...we switch de location to siloso beach coz serene n alvina wanna to cannoe...so we walk over....de weather was realli realli beri beri hot today but there was light drizzle....then joyce hurt her foot becoz of friction from her sandals with de sand...n called her chef friend to pick her up...so after soaking in de beach a while we went to wash up....queue was long becoz there was a bit of rain...so ppl came out to wash up...waited for quite long....hmm...then joyce friend reached....n then we took skyride n luge ride again....this time its joyce with her chef friend sitting together...lol....then we wentt to vivocity....had our dinner...then joyce friend went back to work....so we walk ard vivo...went to a pet store n saw a lot of cute puppies lo...was too tired...so we went home...took bus back home with serene....hmm tats all lol...
feelings overwhelming....
well...today i juz finished my VCd of 'it all started out with a kiss'...abt a stupid ger chasing her dream guy...with determination...never give up attitude....optimistic ger...n a crybaby lol....well a lot of stupid stuff she did for the guy...n finally it touched de guy....lol...well will this be true in real life?...to do stupid stuff for some1 u luv....even though he keeps hurting u so much...wasted so mani tears on him....i guess its worth it for her...for de guy is damn smart...n good looking n etc....sometimes i juz hate de actress in de show...for she always cry....but laugh at her stupid acts....i dunno...coz i never had tat kind of attitude n personalities of her's....but u never noe wat will happen...in future....is it becoz of her personalities tat some1 will fall for her?...argh i dunno....getting emotional these days....guess its for being too free at home...tats y thinking running wild again....sometimes...i juz realli hate guys hahaa...so stupid...n yet gers still fall for them...hai....guess no 1 realli understand wat i am ba...lol...coz no 1 is willing to...of coz...i am protective myself tooo...dun wan to get hurt....even though i said i gave up on guys...but still pinning hope on them...wth....juz feel like a foool...juz admire those who got some1 who dotes on them...who luv them....give them warmth...care...attention they need...
realli sian...while working...sometimes see couples coming in to shop...onli ppl who never felt de luv will noe how i feel...juz dun like ppl who acts as if they understand mi well...actually they dun...well...of coz sometimes...i am juz not myself....too mani sides of mi lol... L A M E....blabbing nonsence stuff again....sometimes juz wnana let ppl noe how i feel...but i dun feel like voicing out hahaha...dun wan to be too dependent on ppl ba...the closer they get...the more hurt they might bring....
BULLLLSHITING again....oki oki...i realli dunno wat i am thinking...juz stop this stupid writing liao...feel like a damn stupid fool...unluved...
miss my friends....
hai...so saddddddd......i miss my friends....most of them working office hrs...n mi....supervisor keep puting mi to work on weekends...n weekdays so free...so sian...ending up i cant meet up with my friends...damn sad....like next week...i onli work on sat...stupid rite...i now holiday...dun let mi work...sian lo~....argh...still i miss my friends.....so saddddddddddd.......hai....*morale low*...*sob sob*...
went out with rebecca
yup...today went out with rebecca n had lunch with her mum....she was treating her mum for mother's day...n treated mi as well....she got a california kitchen voucher 50bucks but still got to pay 30+ more...hmm....it is like any other resturant lo...pricing is ard 10+ to 20+....de food is pasta n pizzas.....de pasta i order was quite nice...smoked bacon n green peas spagatti...cream base...it was quite nice...not beri creamy juz nice...but a bit dry....hmm...they had a seafood pasta...with tomato base...it was nice as well but there is a taste which is quite funny therefore i prefer my spagatti...even rebecca mum also said mine was nicer lol....we had appetizer n pizza as well...well de pizza is kind of larger....so we din finish it...got 3 pieces taken away for rebecca little bro...de pizza has thinner crust so it does not hav thick bread like pizza hut....we ordered pepperoni pizza...not bad...it is crispy as well...after her mum went back...we went to watch a movie...was intending to watch ocean 13 de but in de end we watched fantastic 4 n de silver surfer...hha...de movie is great lol....before we watched d movie...as there were still time so we walked ard n rebecca bot a lot of stuff...ana sui products...150bucks today...hmm....after tat we went home....before i went home...i went to westmall n bought a book...to learn japanese....well hope it is useful lo...hee hee...n hope i dun giv up so soonn...hai!
chocolates!
yea dad is back from Europe today...brought back a key n lock for my 21st bday lol...de design ar not so nice ar lol....well Europe stuff is beri ex lo....n he bot a necklace for mum as well...so sweet rite....ar...also got some t shirts from paris....hmmmm....n brought back a lot of CHOCOLATES....wheee wheee....well my throat is still not well...but cant resist de temptations hahahaha....so mani types some more lo...nice!....hohoho...going to gain more weight liao....hahahaha...yippe nice chocolates....so...chocolaty....some is a bit bitter...but its still nice....hohoho....chocolate luver mi hee....
change new hairstyle~
well...i cut my hair....last sun...to change new hair style....lol...ppl got to get use to my short hair now =P
oh yea...btw monitor was down for 1 week...so these few days i watched tv prog n vcds tat i bot recently...those ou xiang series..."its started with a kiss" super stupid n funny show la...de actress super stupid....hai...sometimes stupid until i cannot tahan....but somehow her stupideness become cuteness...then de actor fall for her -.-...cannot tahaN lo....
