update

hmmm....today...de contractor came to renovate or upgrade our toilet...so was pretty noisy in de morning becoz of de drilling...then in noon...met mum for lunch b4 i went to take my blood test...coz i seeing doc next week...then i received ching sms asking if i was free today...so i rot for 2hrs +++...before i met her at 6+...so i went to rot...ard outram n chinatown lo....i bot a mac wings meal...n rot at mac for 45min+ lol...juz to finish de meal...pro ba...hahaa...i was trying to eat at my slowest speed but cant break de record of eating for 1 hr lol....then i went to walk ard lo...went to people's park area...was looking at some comics...tot of buying one book to read coz it was cheap...2bucks nia...haha...but in de end din buy...eh...lucky still got some1 to sms...so i not so bored lo...hai...then becoz i eaten already...so i accompany ching eat dinner at bugis village...then went to shop ard lo...in de end i did buy something again...oh dear...lol...bought a top...its was oki la...$14.50...offer price le...n a undergarment lol...see la...i dun wan to buy de haha...oh well...then 9+..we took train home lo...hmm tats all..short update ....lalalal.....

mini birthday celebration with da jie

hahaha...ello there...its time for mi to blog again...today ar..we have socio lesson...but serene n joyce din turn up...so i sms them tat they r not there lol...so joyce planned to giv a surprise for da jie...da jie bday is on 4th feb de but i guess its time to meet up in full force again so...we celebrate early...serene tml got operation on her wisdom tooth...so we celebrate today...joyce sms over tat she n serene will buy cake n present n tell mi not to tell any1 lo...so i got to keep mum...n pretend nothing happen haha...hmm...so serene n joyce arrive with de cake....n i had to ask da jie they all to have lunch at de benches lol...joyce kept sms mi n rush mi lol...coz she was beri hungry n thirsty haha..but tat time alvina was highlighting some stuff....n got delayed haha...but when we finished buying de food...i gave a call to joyce...but i think it was too late haha...da jie reached before they manage to light de candles....but i think da jie was realli surprised ba hahha...then we had lunch n cake....we also took a few photos haha...da jie beri funni...she was complaining tat we put too mani candles lol...n was joking with us n said she is juz 13years old haha...da jie still as funni...after we sing finished b day song she blow de candles n quickly take out de candles le hahaha...well yea...this is de main highlight of today....

after tat...joyce, serene n mi had econs lo...super cannot take it...coz dunno wat is de teacher talking abt...we went back pretty early too coz...we din take his test...so today din wait for da jie to go home lo...i accompany joyce eat dinner....b4 she go n take her driving test....

personalities test!

Your Life is 55% Perfect

Your life is pretty normal - sometimes great, sometimes not so great.You have a lot of good stuff going on. Your life may be more perfect than you realize.

How Perfect is Your Life?

You Follow Your Heart

You're romantic, sentimental, and emotional. You tend to fall in (and out of) love very quickly. Some may call you fickle, but you can't help where your emotions take you. You've definitely broken a few hearts, but you're not a heartbreaker by nature. Your intentions are always good, even if they change with the wind

Do You Follow Your Head or Your Heart?

Your Love Type: INTP

The Thinker In love, you are honest and serious about commitment. For you, sex is something you think about and desire a lot of the time. Overall, you are pure in your affection and feelings. However, you tend to be suspicious and distrusting at times. Best matches: ENTJ and ESTJ

What's Your Love Type?

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed. With respect to money, you spend carefully and save your pennies. You think good luck doesn't exist - reality is built on practicalities. The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort. You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked. When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you don't have any particular type in mind, but you are inclined to look for someone who will say yes when you ask him / her out.

Who's The True You?

Libra - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits: You are open minded enough to date outside your typical "type" ... successfully! You are diplomatic - and likely to end a fight instead of dragging things out. You are easily loyal and faithful, but only for the right person. Your negative traits: You're a bit gullible, and partners take advantage of you. You still may not know it. You find it difficult to decide where to go to dinner, what movie to watch, who to date... You have to be in a relationship, or else you just don't feel like yourself. Your ideal partner: A smooth talker who enjoys socializing as much as you to. Someone classy and cultured who knows which wine to order with dinner. Is beautiful to you - although not necessarily attractive in the traditional sense. Your dating style: Romantic. If your date comes bearing flowers, wine, and poetry... well, your heart soars. Your seduction style: Giving. Your lover's pleasure is as important as your own. Soft and sensual - you don't like anything to be rough. Extravagant ... your fantasy involves staying at a five star hotel with your love. Tips for the future: Don't be so quick to compromise in relationships - and you'll get taken advantage of yes. Try being single for a while. Seems impossible, but you'll learn so much about yourself from doing so. Make some decisions about your romantic life, right now. You'll be happy that you did. Best color to attract mate: Green Best day for a date: Wednesday

What's Your Love Profile?

klunch~

heloha...time for my reports again....today i went to kbox with aku n derek...hmm....woke up at 9+...well was hungry so i ate an apple b4 i went out...hmm...recently weather is beri cold lo...hmm...went out at 10....reached there was around 11 lo...then wait for aku n derek...dunno y i always had to wait for ppl...if i late i will tio suan!!! evil rite hahaha...so unfair...lol...dunno la...hmm...today sing kbox also serve as distraction bahz...prevent my mind from thinking too much...n cant seem to get high lo...maybe de presence of derek is there hahaha....then cant get high...opps~....nothing much lo...get to sing a few new songs...then i had fish n chips for lunch....they din provide chilli sauce n colestraw lo...its onli fish n chips n tar tar source n a lot of beans....de fish was quite hard....aku din finished it ...haha too hard for his mouth le ba....eh....then after k lunch....i see 2 guys eat again lo....then we went home lo...on de way to mrt it rained suddenly haha...lucky i got bring umbrella....hai...imagine 3 ppl share 1 small umbrella ....lucky de rain is not heavy...n its a short while nia....when they got off...i went to cck alone since i dun feel like gonig home so early...it was 3+...too bad no 1 is free to entertain mi...so i went to cck n rot for a while....bot a choco milkshake....coz was a bit hungry...juz nice de milkshake was filling...then i went to walk ard....went to de arcade to watch kids play....dunno y i juz like to stand there n watch ppl waste their $$ hahaha...oki la i admit i waste a lot of $$ last time too...well...kids nowadays so good...parents willing to spend a lot of $$ on arcade lo....hahaha...juz for the sake of short term happiness n excitement....hmmm...i think i stay there quite long...until 4+ then i left de arcade....went in de comics shop for a while...was tempting to buy a comics call trinity blood....argh...vampire de wor hahaha...cool cool vampire hahaha....well i like to drown myself in fantasy ma...but i din buy....coz...dunon la...coz overspent last month...now scare liao lol...somemore i request to work 2 days per week = less $$...so dun dare to spend too much...sigh....then after my mum called mi n ask if i was going home for dinner...feeling tired...i decided to go home lo....n da jie bday coming liao...joyce sms to ask for suggestions lo...hahaha...(dun say i din mention ur name ar JOYCE) lol....she ar...wans to club -.-...i see club...means a lot of $$ going to fly away liao hahaha...well once in a while is oki...but dunno la...dun hab much plans now...eh...guess tats all ba lol...

blooooooody movie...

heloha...nowadays blog almost everyday...well i also dunno y...juz maybe thinking too much le bahz...hmmm...today...went to watch movie with ken =)...hmmm i was at home lo...coz today is stats consultation so i din went to sch...so we met at westmall instead....hmmm tats was 12+ bahz...i was in a rush lol...i tot we might watch in de evening or something...was planning to do something b4 watching movie de...but then...well i can get it done another day ba...hmmm...i got there 1st...hmm also dunno wat movie to watch...coz some were horror movies...as u all noe i dun like horror movies hahaha...then...when ken reached...he ask mi to decide -.-....then i chose apocalypto...i tot it was some alien show ....but in the end it was a super bloody show....

story is abt a trible man escaping from the agressive trible's clutches...his own trible was being ravaged...some how this trible man managed to survive thru a lot of ordeals...its a bloody movie...coz all i see is blood n insanely killing of ppl...like slitting of ppl neck...or stabbing n digging out ppl's heart for their crazy rituals....after digging out their heart...they cut off de guy's head n row them down the stairs of temple....geeezzzz....n there is a lot of headless bodies lo....tat was realli grosss...some how when it was de trible man's turn to be sacrifice....there was a eclipse which saved him from being killed...again...he survived thru the hunter n prey game....the survivors were ask to run towards the corn fields where behind lies ahead was their jungle....then those agressive warriors will use all kind of weapons to kill them like preys....those scene -.-....speared through the head...or de rock hit de head....argh...of coz...too gross to watch...so i covered my eyes(expected) hahaha...the man he got hurt but managed to fight back n killed de warrior's son....of coz....the warrior brought his man to hunt him down....one by one they were killed for coming after the man....one was killed by jargur....they even show how the jargur bite the man's face....haha funni la he became de scapegoat lo....coz the lucky man was running away from it ....n de agressive trible man ran quite fast n cut his lane lol....serve him rite hahaha...one of de man said it was a bad omen...then in de end he was bit by a poisonous snake when he found clues of de runaway man....the trible man juz ran n ran...until he came to a waterfall...being fearless n he was being caught up...he jumped down lo...n survived...n even challenged them to jump down de waterfall...well de warrior of coz ask his man to jump...he also did jump n survived...some jumped n died....n continue their chase....using his hunter tactics...the man killed some of the ppl including de warrior....n in de end he saved his sons n wife where he had hid them in deep hole? haha...its was raining lo n flooded....lucky his family survived....his wife also gave birth when de hole was flooded...

i lost my appetite after watching de movie lol....too much killings for mi hahha...then i had some dessert b4 ken send mi home lo...i had ice jelly cocktail...realli no appetite...but ken said de movie was "oki" -.-....oh yea forget to add a part....when the man fought de guy coming after him...he wack his head...wa...until can see de brain n blood is like gushing out....like water fountain!!!!argh....cant take it anymore....hahahahaha....wow...i juz describled de movie...like writing essays hahaha...oh ya...juz now supervisor called to ask mi if i can work on sunday...evil...i told them i got something on...hahahah....beri sian la...working super sian lo....dun care...haha...maybe sunday going sing hoho...hope can destress a bit...sigh~...*thinking too much*...

restless day...

as usual...today got class...was already awake b4 my alarm rang...sigh...cant even let mi slp until de alarm clock ring....stupid body...anyway....juz like any other thursday...i will go to sch early to book seats....today i reached sch quite early...think was ard 8.30 when i reached...n i went to de foodcourt n get a cheese hotdog...hmmm...then when i was back kath was already there...then she came over n talk to mi...we chatted a while then nageb came in....then rebecca reached n follow by serene....today was a tired day...maybe becoz of de few late nites...i dunno y its seem tat i dun hav enuff slp..after sch today...was intending to hav lunch then go home de but then rebecca dun wan to go home so early so we went to hav lunch at woodlands...yes..my work place -.-"...we went to pasta mania to have lunch...sigh...today she juz return 20bucks for de book in de end din bring enuff $$ n got to borrow from mi again...so she owe mi hmm 10+bucks hahaha...i had bake rice there...n put a lot of cheese heehee...then we went to walk ard lo...looking at clothes...went to comics shop...n popular bookshop....basically juz spent my whole afternoon there....walking around...was realli tired coz i was yawning....n de bag was quite heavy...we even went to pasar malam lo...then rebecca was planning to get some bedsheets...she also saw some cute bookmarks....n small drawers to put her accessories...but din buy la...all this walking around was realli tired...then i went to cck n get some stuff n went home...i dunno y...but stomach has not been feeling good...feel like vomiting after eating my meals... sian...dunno y...dunno is becoz of de pasta or not....hmmm....got home is already like 7 lo...then i had little for dinner coz was not feeling hungry...

after dinner...i watched tv for a while n start to surf de web....listening to de pop songs...trying to pick up some songs to sing hhaha...but voice was not feeling alright...some how lost de mood n passion...sian...cant get back de feeling....dunno is becoz again not enuff slp....then my bro came in n listen to de musics too...i guess i not enuff slp....suddenly got "high" was realli going crazy....after i "high" for a while ....calm myself down...n feel down again....feel like going to somewhere to vent out all the stuff inside mi...go to de ocean n scream prehaps...is it tat i am too stress?...argh....y do i feel like crying?...i think i better get to bed early today...realli not being myself...sigh...

juz an update

hmmm...din went out today...coz zhong no mood to go out lo...so stayed at home today....wake up at ard 10.30am...then ate biscuits + tuna for breakfast lo....then slack in fron to of the television...n watched my bro play dota...was thinking if i wan to go out n study or not...then when mum came back...went to eat lunch downstairs lo....then also trim my eyebrows....then got home already 3pm le...so din go out n study lo...juz stayed at home n study lo...until 7...then i bath n had my dinner....nowwwwww....blogging lo hahha...really boring hor...hope to go out with u-noe-hu...haha...sian i muz be crazy le hai!!!!bored bored bored nahz....aku intends to go sing kbox after he is feeling better...haha he juz got his wisdom tooth out...haha busybody bro juz came into de room hahahaa....tml got sch again...argh...nageb class...hai~....life is boring!!!give mi some entertainment plsss.s....lol...kk ........

B - O - R - E - D

nothing interesting~

hmmm...nothing much happen today lo...juz doing my usual routine...hmm..wake up...brush teeth...then hav my breakfast+lunch lo.....then prepare to get to work...hmmm...as usual...i reached woodlands quite early so i went to walk around...then i happen to walk into popular bookshop...hmm...then looking at books lo...then i spotted one book....Astrology bible by Judy Hall....coooooooooool....hahahaa...something interesting...hahaha....then i look at my horoscope...well it tells a lot of thing...personality n stuff...some of them were realli quite true lo!!!...oh gosh hahaa....it was realli fun reading stuff like tat....i tot of buying it...but it was pretty ex lo...30bucks....sigh -.-....i dun think i will be getting it ba...sian...i onli manage to read a while...then go to go work le....work ar...beri monotonous lo....but today de supervisor not working...so quite relax lo...hahaha....tired of coz...tml meeting zhong to hav lunch with ber...hmmm since so long never meet up le...so decide to meet him ba...well tml is my off day ma...n these few days din realli go out...so going to town n to meet ber...haha...miss her lol...guess tats all...

boring ar!

llalala....last week was realli boring...mon got class...tue n wed stay at home n slack...onli studied a little at nite...thur...class...fri...slack again...weekends got work...so boring!!!...n haven been to kbox or cinenema for quite sometime le...movie still oki la...i think de last movie watched was 2 to 3 weeks ago...which was death note....boring!!!...no entertainment!...coz exam coming...sigh...muz study....argh...well this week...i working on tue n sat....muahahah....maybe can go out on sun...well i dunno...no plans yet...lalaalla...boring sia...stress also haha...nothing much to update lehz...nothing exciting has happen much...well guess tats all...boring life is like tat de.... lalallallalaa...

tired day...

yup...was pretty tired....early in de morning...woke up before my alarm clock rang again....then today...miss quite a few train coz it was crowded...then since i miss de train to jurong east might as well take de pasir ris train lo...as usual...it was very packed lo....reached sch ard 8.45am bahz....lucky still got seats....as usual...those 2 will be late hahaha....opps...class was pretty tiring bahz?...after class....serene got my chap 9 n 10 notes which i juz got back from kath this morning...then rebecca borrowed my chap 7....well they like to lighten my bag load hahah....

then...beri sian...got to stay back to help rebecca do her src...ex-co...gift...sigh...becoz i am her "buddy"....i had to help her...sian lo...stayed in sch until 6 lo...damn tiring lo...dunno la...juz dun like to be take for granted...juz becoz i am ur buddy...cant be so pushy bahz....i'm ur buddy...not ur maid -.-...somemore its free labour lo...i am not even one of the member...sigh....being a good friend is tough too...sian...guess i am too nice bahz....nice not good at all sia...guess i muz be bad hahah...be a little devil...wahahaha...hai....then in de evening it rained lo...n waited for de bus for a long time...tat time was also peak hr...de traffic is realli slow...bus juz simply stopped there....then finally i reached home at 7...geez....tired tired...cant help being feeling tired...de eyes lids became beri heavy lo...hmm....sian exam is nearing...sigh...study study...muz kambatte...

stress level increasing....

yes...tats wat happen right now...stress lvl is increasing subconsiously....until its affecting my slp...i woke up at 6...started thinking again....well..tot a lot of stuff...n once i woke up...its hard for mi to get back to slp...tots will juz flow in....n i am suppose to wake up at 7.30....argh...subconsiously...as de exam approaches...even though in de consious mind....i dun feel anything...but at de head of de mind...i noe wats happening...pressure is increasing...pressure from work...from ppl....i am not gd at handling stress...the mind will juz think n think...tats wat happening in this morning...even though i am realli tired...but i can actually blog right now....guess its time to start studying if i cant go to slp...well if this goes on...i dunno if my body can take it...realli dun feel like working liao...as de pressure builds up..well if the auntie keep pushing mi ard...i might juz explode...n quit...but...no work...no $$....sux....dilema....cant slp at peace.....argh...coz sometimes...they r not understanding abt my situation...ppl might see mi calm n peaceful on de outside...but its worrying sick on the inside...i dun wan to waste my mum's $$...i dun wan to let her down...realli....but there is juz de no confidence n faith which is hinging de movtivation to study...fear....realli fear of failing....i might juz plunge down in darkness...n simply juz give up....well...i hope after i pend my thoughts down..i might feel better...hope so....

went out ^^

hee hee...rainy day today....as usual i suddenly woke up at 7+...but was half asleep until i woke up at 10....hai...3rd day its has been like this...wonder y...n my appitede has been on n off...sometimes i feel hungry but when i see de food...well i juz dun feel like eating...like in de morning...dad da bao hokkien mee...but i onli ate half of it...in end my dad finished it...hmmm....then i juz watched tv....hmmm...saw a earthquake show....something like geographic stuff....talking abt earthquake at turkey.....which causes a lot of death when earthquake came...because it was alone de line when de pieces of earthquake move...hahaa...i studied geo in sec sch...but i forgetten all of it le...hahaha all those plates n converging stuff...well...de ppl who studdied earthquake predicted tat there will be earthquake at certain areas...but ppl juz dun take it seriously...n did nothing much abt which will naturally led to deaths...well...those ppl will blame de architect who build unstable structures....but i guess...some of de fault also lies in those ppl themselves....they have been warned abt de earthquake but they din prepapre for it...maybe they might not be rich n stuff...but...still they dun take it seriously...in de end...a lot of ppl will juz be gone...which was so sad....lucky singapore dun lies near de lines of movement of plates...or else it will juz either topple or sank into de sea hahaha..since its a small dot on de map....

hmmm...when i woke up i msg ken....he onli replied mi at 1.34pm...do u noe y i remembered this timing? coz joyce sms mi at de same time...LOL...so coincidencial rite....joyce was asking us if we wan to go shopping on fri haha...AH forget to tell her tat there will be no class hor ....shitty haha but nvm tml will see her...can tell her n serene tat we dun hav class on 2 weeks of fri...i think they will be happi like mad lol...well....then msg ken n joyce for a while...realli felt like going out lo despite of de wet wet weather when ppl will preferred to stay in their cosy home...but i dunno y sometimes becoz of this weather...de more i felt i wan to go out....so i indirectly ask him out =P.....hahaha...then we met at 5.10....n he brought mi to his church....well oki...i admit i was bored at de church la...becoz i dunno anything abt christainity...neither am i a christain...i tried to listen to de "teaching" or preaching....de words i remembered from there is...hmmm lets see ar...."god loves u"...."grace"..."superbounded"..."amen" n "halelluya"...n story of erm...i forget tat guy name hahaha....well...i think i stayed there for like 1 or 2hrs...ken says "lets go bahz" coz he saw tat i cant take it anymore...hahaha...so we went for dinner...well becoz i am not part of de "family"...tats y i dun actually feel de luv from god...well no offense oki....but rather i feel luv from my family n friends la...well...its whether one believes it or not...hmm...so we walk ard suntec...to find dinner....decisions is on mi sia...when i got out...i dun feel hungry anymore...so stupid rite lol...i was realli hungry in there....then...when i came out was not...so contradicting...

well...i decide to go to kenny roger's....well i realli dunno wat to eat ma...so brought ken there n ordered quarter chicken....ken said its was his 2nd time here....1st time was with his ex...ic...n we even sit at de same spot...wow...brings back his old memories bahz hahaha...then we chatted lo...abt online gaming la...n his stories of jesus christ...n...my sisters n friends lo....well...oki la...at least he knows a lot haha...n can entertain mi with his stories...then after dinner....he got a call from his mum tat she got dengue fever...n need to go hospital...n his mum's birthday was on tue...hmm...how to go celebrate like tat...hmmm...then on the way...we went to hmv....he actually like mary poppins music...haha...well i think i was too young to know ba...i dun remember anything when i was a kid anyway...then took mrt n send mi home.....hmm oki la...seems tat i wrote a long entry for today again...hahah...oki shall slp soon ...its getting so late liao oh gosh...niteZ

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hmm....today i got work...sian...as usual was working lo...then today after my "dinner"...i heard from de auntie that de supervisor accuse mi for stuff i din do lo...kns...everything also is de supervisor say de...say tat i ordered too much nail remover...so bullshit...i told n even showed her de type of nail remover which was left beri little lo...kns....so idiotic...watever...today she din came to work...so shitty lo...hate ppl accusing mi of stuff i din do...scarly is her fault n she is juz trying to find others to blame....old liao still wan to say ppl...dun she even noe tat all de staff dun like her at all becoz of her say 1 thing n doing another thing behind ppl back....ppl juz dun wan to ji jiao with her nia...kns....watever lahz...see mi beri nice good to bully....being a nice person is hard...another annoying stuff happen...coz i was working on sat n sun next week...got an auntie wanna off on tue lo....ask mi to work one more day...kns....y r ppl so selfish?....anyway i din take up de job lo....my exam comin soon still ask mi work...say wat rubbish....work more ma earn more $$...if i realli wanna work for more $$...i rather change job liao lo...but the auntie still oki la...not beri persistant after i told her i need to study...sigh...ppl r juz not understanding...being nice is not gd at all...coz...in de end...de 1 suffering is de nice person....so wat for be a nice ppl?...ppl onli will make use of u in de end....

sigh....tats y...ppl see mi so weak....hai...good to bully....how i wish i can be a baddie...zzzz....so nice for wat...also no use...no 1 will appreciate...when i need help...who will help mi?....i also dunno...de world is like tat de la...so unfair....n selfish....human beings juz sux...tats y i hate myself sometimes....helping ppl...in de end....ppl happi...i not happi....but who bothers?....bahz...forget it...tats how things work...its either de stong survive or de weak suffer in de end....

i dunno wat happen...these two days haven been slping well...woke up in de middle of de night....having dreams....waking up at ard 7+....maybe becoz of my body alarm...coz usually i wake up at 7.30 for sch...sigh...cant get a good night slp at all....even though i got no sch i also wake up at that timing....so its seems i got not enuff slp...juz now still got a big headache...sian....wats wrong with mi sia....hai...maybe dre pressure is building up....somehow i need to find ways to release it...or i will explode soon...helpppppppppppp mi -.-....sigh...

nothing better to do haha...

hmmm juz check out some of my friends' blog...came across this tarot card thingy...found it interesting n tried tat out haha how true is tat!?

You are The Empress

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents,
beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home
decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

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fri again...as usual stats class is as boring as ever...n today it ended at 12.30 which is a torture for us...today jenny was de 1st 1 who reached sch...it was raining since last nite till now...was realli nice to slp lo...so a lot of ppl was absent today hahaha...joyce n serene overslpt...n so din come for class lo...then today onli mi n jenny n delwin n kath attend de class lo....after sch today...kath accompany mi for lunch lo...on de way ken spotted mi but i din saw him la until he "tap" my shoulder...i was blur like gong gong la lol...then i had pizza for lunch...after tat...we went home lo...kath bus came 1st...n i waited for 20min for my bus....when i reached de interchange...i miss de bus again lo...so i waited again...then i saw my neighbour queueing up la...but i was outside sitting...then when i was about to board de bus i happen to meet mum...n then accompany her to jurong east to settle some stuff....i tot i could go home n rest b4 meeting ching...well in de end my mum n i walk walk ard jurong east until de time is up to meet ching lo...but we din walk for long...mum went home at 4...so i got to find a place to rot...argh...n went to de library....sian...i dun like library hahaha...well but i got no place to go lo...so i go there....walking ard trying to find a book to read....then i go to de pysocology section...spotted a book "crappy to happy"....haha b4 i saw tat book i saw some business management books...like business ethics haha...stupid sia lol....i read their 1st few pages but got bored...lol then i saw tat book...which seems to be interesting i start reading...tat book is quite meaningful...as de author wrote abt her experiences she go thru...all de feelings n points of views were written in there...some is similar to the situation we might come across lo....then there is always some points on "lesson learnt"...i read it n manage to remember some of de points like...."we must do wat we luv"..."must be true to ourselves"....some stuff abt luving urself n giving ur luv to others....in times we always consider how others might feel if we do certain stuff...but if we always comprise others...wat will happen to us? in de end is we r de ones being untrue to ourselves....then we will lose our true self...sometimes...de failures we go thru...helps us to bring out our new self n to learn lesson from them....if we feel bad abt ourselves...it will multiply....so we had to feel gd abt ourselves n then de "good" will be multiplied...when it does...ppl ard us will feel it...n they might feel happy too hahhaha...well its really interesting la...but i din borrow it...hmm...i onli read half of it...then i went to meet ching...sometimes...if u realli luv some1...u had to let him or her go...de author gave an example of her dying grandma...she dun wan her beluv grandma to go but then thinking back of her grandma's suffering...she finally let her go...n in end she gain more luv...i dunno how to explain it la...but its juz so touching lo....n she mentioned abt inner self...there is de adult self n de child self...as we grow older...our child self is lost...hmm...so sometimes its alright to be a child again doing the stuff u like...then u will be happier...rather than always doing n fulfilling other's ppl goals....their experiences is theirs not urs...one has to have his or her own goals....this sounds so true....

so...i thought abt my life...instead of always feeling negatively...n whine abt my past...i should let it go since its de past....well its hard to do it la...but wats de point of feeling sad...in life...we got to make choices...we decide our future...i guess i noe y i was upset ytd...maybe i was not true to myself...so i got angry abt myself....lucky ken msn mi....then i felt much better...the book mention...dun hate ur enemy...instead treat them as angel...hmmm...well i guess life is short...if we always remember all de bad stuff....we wont be happy as well...forgive n forget tats wat dave said b4 hahaa....well tat was a good book...it also said...something like...dun hang ard with ppl who always put u down..instead hang ard ppl who is always supporting u...in this way...u will feel happier...sometimes it is alright to be vunerable at times...its not a sign of weakness...instead it takes courage for one to be weak at times n expressing to others n letting others noe....hmmm...in fact i like tat book...coz tats wat realli happening in life...sometimes to please other ppl...u got to scarifice ur own goal....in de end de 1 being unhappy is urself....other goals become ur goal...its juz not right lo...

oki enuff of this lengthy stuff...i also dunno wat am i blabbling abt...hmm...i waited for the shuttle bus outside popular...damn it lo...waited for 20min+...then de bus came...then meet ching n had dinner at a hong kong snack store or something...ching ordered a lotus seed chicken...its like those tonic chicken stuff...actually i dun realli like eating tat but we juz try lo...n 3piece fried chicken...we ordered ice yuan yang...it was actually tea+ coffee...with a scoop of icecream...drink was not bad...but i got sick of eating de tonic chicken hahaha....then we went to jurong point coz ching need to get something from there...we walk ard then took a bus home...i took bus with ching....when i reached cck interchange....i waited for 20min++ again for the bus....zzzz....was getting beri tired...coz was out all day n de wet weather....then when de bus finally came...i felt tat i got a bit car sick...but manage to get over it..after i reached home...took a cold bath again n rest on my bed....now super tired...feel like slping soon hahaa....tml got work again sian...oki shall stop here..lol today's entry is sooooooooo long hahah....

outing...

hmmm....today i got no work...so as usual will wake up at 10am....today was meeting kiwi n de rest for dinner....hmmm....breakfast was wanton mee...hmm...dun like de mee...n de wanton was so small....so i ate de wanton onli hhaha....then i wait for my mum to come home....by de time mum came home...it was already 2pm liao...then we were suppose to meet at 4pm...well anyway...i juz had a chicken burger...n mum ordered rojak haha...then i went home...prepare a while n went out...coz i noe i will be late...well...there is always others who will be late....as well...lateR than mi haha...de 1st guy i met up with was cherljon...aka johnathan....ahahah...i din realli recongise him from far....coz long time no meet up le...n ppl will grow de ma ...hahaha grown tall liao...looks still quite de same ba....then we go n meet ah huat also called johnathan hahaha....he was at mos burger with his friend so...we go n meet him...wayne n kiwi n dave was late la...dave reached soon after we found ah huat....hmmm then came wayne n de last is kiwi lo....n we went to eat seoul garden....SIGH....5 pm go n eat dinner....a bit early for mi ...somemore i had something earlier liao hahaha....so basically my 25bucks was not well spent hahaha...well i dun eat much too...coz de food was not realli appealing?...eating buffet is not worthwhile for de rest of us ba....cept kiwi la....his fav place...well cherljon surprise mi lo....he ate a lot....n i realli meant A LOT....cannot judge a book by its cover sia....dun see him tall...not skinny ba is average...but he realli eat lot ba...but still lose out to kiwi by a bit...but surely 1st place if kiwi is not ard lol...but he still quite healthy la...got eat salad lol...n was planning to go gym tml liao...so wont be as big as kiwi haha...ben met us for a while...din join us for dinner but had some drink n chat lo...he went off later to meet his good friend to celebrate bday lo....after dinner...it was 8+ liao...so they decide to go pool...well if they chose to play lans....i will juz go home lo hahaha...so they played pool for a while...played until 10+...then we went home lo...so now i am home resting...sian...got a call from my workplace...then i got to go work on tue...SIAN la...told them i wan to work 2 days liao..hai but i dunno how to reject ppl la...kns mi....work from 11 to 7,30...still oki but still SIAN la....grrr....stupid mi -.-....wat can i say....

juz a moment of feeling empty

hmm...went to sch today...stats class was boring as usual...then wait for a friend to pass him stuff...as usual late lo...then i n ken had to wait for some time...then we had lunch at bt timah foodcourt ba...then i went home...anyway took a wrong bus home...haha...tats was heading towards clementi...then i alight n took another bus then was on de right track....when i reached home...i was realli tired...n din feel like doing anything...so i juz rest n do some puzzle book thingy....

dunno y...i am feeling kind of down....pms ma?...juz feel tat i am useless sigh -.- this thingy comes n go...guess ppl see le also used to it le...exam fees has come...maybe tats y i am worry of my studies...time passes so fast...i believe all my friends can make it..i am scare i wont...coz i noe my studies is not gd at all...n i dun like to study n no motivation...HAI....tats y...stupid mi rite....sometimes being alone is gd...but when u r alone...u will tend to think of a lot of stuff....for mi i will think a lot of bad stuff tats y....well after listening to phantom of de opera music...lighten up a bit liao....

night time n day time....i prefer de nite...even though it often makes 1 feel lonely...maybe becoz of de quiet surrounding...sometimes becoz of de cool cool breeze tat brush on de cheeks...n especially like de stars in de nite....coz they r so little...but there is lots n lots of them...n all of them r blinking at u....how nice would it be to see de nite sky with lots n lots of stars in a open sky....de feeling would be wesome...i onli remember a little of this scene when i went to sec 1 orientation camp....during de nite walk...but i kind of forget how it looks like le....but i remember i enjoyed tat nite...coz it was my 1st time seeing so mani stars...its all in de past....i do get to see some stars from my small window in my room....even though they r little compare to de 1 i saw b4...but still it always makes mi feel hmmmm...there is juz a undescrible feeling...but it was a good feeling....it gives a majestic feeling....i am juz a small small person standing under a big big sky....hahaha my vocab is litmited la...sigh....emptiness...wats de meaning of my life...i dunno!!!!wat do i live for?

a new year

hmmm...actually there is not much to update....coz after outing with jie mei mens...did not nothing much...went out on thur with mum n get myself a lot of stuff...1 skirt,2 tops , 1 jacket n a bag...the next day i fall SICK!...most prob i din drink enuff water...thur nite my throat was in pain..the next day i was feeling terrible...feeling cold n a sore throat....then mum took mi to see de doc lo....n got mc...then i din went work on sat....n on tat day itself got another auntie cannot go to work coz her grandma pass away....hmm then de aunties was super busy tat day....sun i went back to work...even though i was still feeling sick...bo bian sia...then de following mon also working lo....last day of 2006 n 1st day of 2007...i was working with a sick body....count down in my slp ba lol...coz was not feeling well...tue i was bored n wanted to go out...so i ask da jie out...n go walk walk nearby at jurong point...din do much coz there was no movie to watch lo...then i suddenly feel like eating pizza n had pizza hut for dinner...hahahah...still haven fully recovered....n starting to eat heaty stuff liao lol....wed i got work again...sighhhh....then somemore OT for 1 hr....was feeeling so tired....then today actually got ibm test...so tried to study on wed...in end slpt at 1+....today was feeling alll terrible....body cannot take it....lucky test got postpone...but went out accompany qi go buy stuff...until i reached home at ard 8....hmmm....keep dozing off in train but will wake up suddenly lol....a lot of times....tooo tired...n felt like vomitting coz not enuff slp...hai....so was feeeling all screw up...n received my exam fee slip....so stressss n tense up....all this feeling add up together = horrigible feeling...super screw up...feeling quite down....but after chatting with my friends...felt much better liao...so i going to slp sssssoooonnnn....coz super tired liao...somemore haven fully recovered still got a bit flu....so hmm tats all ba...n thx to da jie friend i manage to log in n blog hahaha....1st blog in new year wor...so meaningless hahaha